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tsatske -> RE: Punishment... (7/16/2008 7:13:56 PM)
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I am punished, if corpral punishment is given, which is rarely, with his belt.
Before Him, the belt was one of my (many) favorite toys. Something about leather, you know, - just hot.
Compared to what we play with when we play, the belt is an incredibly light toy. He does not use it particularly hard when i need to be punished - because it is not necessarry. In punishment, the pain to pleasure transfer does not work for me.
Punishment is, in the end, really, for me. It allows me to hear the words that are ritual to us, at the end - 'You are forgiven.' He could, of course, just say them, but then I would not take them in, and would still be beating myself up.
If you wanted wank matterail, you should have asked how we play - we play pretty damn heavy. But punishment is not about heavy. It is about restoring what is between us when things have gone wrong. Probably every time He has punished me, He has, perhaps (don't know, can't truly speak for him), but, basicly understood the 'why' of the particular incident - there has never been an incident of willful disobiedance. But he understands that I need the catharsis. That is why i said, that, basicly, it is for me.
It is not about pain. If the belt comes off, I disappointed him. If he has to take off His belt, He is not doing it for His pleasure. I did something that needs it. That is the 'punishment'. The belt just puts us back together, says, it's over, put it behind you, forget it.
It works. as 'soft' as the level of 'pain' is, or would be, in 'play', it works. If I am getting to fiesty, He can touch his belt and raise an eyebrow, and I am in line. It cuts through the 'Sammyness' - in teasing, I can be a bit Sammy, kind of like, 'oh, yea, and you are going to do what to me that is such a big bad threat?' and the answer is, 'my belt', and the Sammyness stops. So it also works as a way to let me know when my playfullness is pushing too far.
As I said, not such good wank, but, the real stuff, for us, at least.
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