ElanSubdued
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It's just a question of time before someone gets their hands on me when they'll learn how passive, shy, and submissive i can be. I like to envision my whole existence as a predestined purpose of becoming the private property of others for their satisfaction or even for their perverted mind. I've always felt a strong need to please, to feel useful and appreciated, even at the price of people frequently taking advantage of me. What better than progressively becoming a slave to achieve that? I've come to realise that i don't even care if the people who will own me intend to expose me to intense degradation, abuse, or unrewarding treatments at times. I only want to become the best slave i can because the only thing that matters to me is to please. I love it when i get the chilling feeling that people are unable to get tired of me. It's highly stimulating for me. You may be surprised to know that many dominas don't want a "passive, shy submissive". However, this isn't the part of your OP that alarms me. Rather, it's this: "I've always felt a strong need to please, to feel useful and appreciated, even at the price of people frequently taking advantage of me". This isn't a good place to be because people *will* take advantage of you. Being submissive doesn't mean having no self value, no self esteem, and making poor decisions. A domina friend of mine and I were discussing the difference between healthy BDSM relationships and those who use BDSM as a shelter for their personality disorders to flourish. Now I'm not saying you have a personality disorder, however, based on your OP, all you've told us is that you're willing to put your own safety at risk for your fetish (which is drinking piss). This isn't a great way to impress the dominas here and it doesn't reflect well on you as a healthy, balanced, attractive, prospective relationship partner. You may be a totally different person outside of the small glimpse you've given us. We can't tell this though. The glimpse you've shown sounds unhealthily addicted. quote:
For me, the act from a Mistress to relieve herself by pissing inside my mouth represents the unique opportunity for me to prove to my Mistress that i truly belong to her and that i deeply worship her. For that reason i think it's of the uppermost importance that i perform to meet her expectations. I want her to feel excited, thrilled that i'm willing to do this to the extent of letting her abusing me like that. I rapidly found that i adore to be forced to do that. It is at the same time extremely humiliating (i would never dare to tell this to my family, friends or acquaintances!) and it also provide me with very strong sensations. I inevitably feel my heart pounding very hard and loudly, i breathe with some difficulty, i feel myself blushing in real shame to have to secretly confess i'm reduced to deprave myself to that extent. But at the same time, the fantastic butterflies i feel in my stomach are the true proof that what i do is right! There's nothing wrong with enjoying your fetishes, but wrapping them up in some kind of noble, "proving myself for my Mistress" credo won't fly on this forum. You're not fooling anyone. Drinking pee is *your* fetish. It has nothing to do with anyone else. You like it so you do it. quote:
It's like doing anything somebody asks you, when you are in love with her. I long ago stopped doing anything my lover asks without question. If my lover asks me to do something seemingly dangerous, foolhardy, hurtful, stupid, etc., I'm likely to have a serious and simultaneously respectful conversation with her. quote:
At times, i have noticed that some particular Mistresses i've met through adds obviously took a wicked kick out of destructing my dignity by abusing me to the extreme. For example, some must have taken very large amounts of liquid before meeting me, because the rapidity with which they urinated inside my stomach with such unreasonable quantities of nectar, was surely intended to satisfy some viscious urge to destroy the male image. One of the Mistresses seemed particularly happy to see me choke, when i couldn't swallow everything and see me feel sick from that. If you're paying someone to deliver your fantasies, provided the person isn't a con artist, they generally will deliver. Quid pro quo arrangements have little to do with actual, BDSM relationships. From what you've described, I don't think the nectar dispenser necessarily has a desire to "destroy the male image" (though imagining this may well enhance your fantasy). So, now to address the question in your OP. Is it thrilling for a domina to watch a submissive drink the domina's own piss? Some enjoy this and others do not. That said, I feel reasonably comfortable saying that extremely few dominas make piss drinking the centre of their universe. This is something you may wish to consider during your search for a partner. Elan.
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