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winoverme -> Do Dommes feel thrilled to watch their sub drinking their Golden nectar? (8/24/2008 12:08:40 AM)
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Hello all,
I've always known that i am submissive to women. Since more than two years now, i've taken the initiative to take personal steps to make sure i'm constantly learning how i can please others by getting better at it everyday. It's not a joke. I clearly see myself ball-leashed at the feet of one or more Mistresses in the near future. It's just a question of time before someone gets their hands on me when they'll learn how passive, shy and submissive i can be..I like to envision my whole existence as a predestined purpose of becoming the private property of others for their satisfaction or even for their perverted mind. I've always felt a strong need to please, to feel useful and appreciated, even at the price of people frequently taking advantage of me. What better than progressively becoming a slave to achieve that? I've come to realise that i don't even care if the people who will own me intend to expose me to intense degradation, abuse or unrewarding treatments at times..I only want to become the best slave i can because the only thing that matters to me is to please..I love it when i get the chilling feeling that people are unable to get tired of me..It's highly stimulating for me.
I wanted to ask a particular question..I'd like to know how many FemDoms (Dommes) actually enjoy the option of having their sub/slave drinking their golden nectar? I ask because, as i've fantasized a lot on this BDSM practice since a very long time, i've started to try it these last two years to get introduced to one highly erotic humiliation. I've started by glancing through local newspapers, looking for domination services..So i have met on many occasions various dominating Mistresses who offered golden showers servicesù...My big obsession with it was that i so madly felt driven by the irresistible urge of receive the WHOLE quantity of nectar inside my mouth. I thought that to only be spattered all over my body was not a big humiliation enough for me..even if it's nevertheless degrading, i'll admit. So it became obvious rather soon, that i was looking for a greater thrill and humiliation. So what i'm trying to do each time i'm exposed to that, is to take mouthful by mouthful slowly, meticulously, to make sure i don't lose any drop for no good reason. Why? Simply because for me, any part of a Mistress or woman is sacred, body or soul...I am learning each time to savor any of this precious gift in my mouth like if it was a refine wine or divine nectar belonging to a Goddess. If this ritual is so important to me, it's because i truly believe that when i assume the responsibility of consuming a Mistress's urine, in reality it means that i have to be up to it, if i really care about her personal satisfaction, pride, dignity and respect...I'm serious about that. For me, the act from a Mistress to relieve herself by pissing inside my mouth represents the unique opportunity for me to prove to my Mistress that i truly belong to her and that i deeply worship her. For that reason i think it's of the uppermost importance that i perform to meet her expectations. I want her to feel excited, thrilled that i'm willing to do this to the extent of letting her abusing me like that. I rapidly found that i adore to be forced to do that. It is at the same time extremely humiliating (i would never dare to tell this to my family, friends or acquaintances!) and it also provide me with very strong sensations..I inevitably feel my heart pounding very hard and loudly, i breathe with some difficulty, i feel myself blushing in real shame to have to secretly confess i'm reduced to deprave myself to that extent. But at the same time, the fantastic butterflies i feel in my stomach are the true proof that what i do is right! It's like doing anything somebody asks you, when you are in love with her. At times, i have noticed that some particular Mistresses i've met through adds obviously took a wicked kick out of destructing my dignity by abusing me to the extreme. For example, some must have taken very large amounts of liquid before meeting me, because the rapidity with which they urinated inside my stomach with such unreasonable quantities of nectar, was surely intended to satisfy some viscious urge to destroy the male image..One of the Mistresses seemed particularly happy to see me choke, when i couldn't swallow everything and see me feel sick from that..But even as i say that, i don't even complain..For me, the important thing is to become used to any treatment, good or bad, if i ultimately want to become essential in the existence of my beloved Mistress..A slave is a slave so he has to cultivate the art of self-denying or even self-degradation to please properly if he wants to pretend he deserves to be appreciated and loved by his Mistress. My global attitude towards abusing adversity, is one of warmth, understanding, love and total passivity. I want to try to be the best i am so that my Mistress will feel totally happy with herself and me. So i guess i'll continue to perform this pratice and others until i become extremely good at it..
Any comments, ideas will be highly welcomed, coming from Mistresses, Dommes, subs or slaves, reading this. I hope to have many feedbacks on how you see the situation i feel i'm in and what you personally think of all that. Thank you.
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