faithbunny -> RE: Simple Things I've Never Done... (10/9/2008 8:17:10 PM)
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ORIGINAL: marieToo It's not about not communicating your basic needs in the relationship, it's about telling your dom thay you desire particular acts. For some us, having things done to us that we ask for changes the frame of mind of the submission. For myself, I like to be used in whatever way he wants, and if I said to him "Could you please do A B and C to me", and he complied,. the whole frame of mind is different while he's doing those things because it feels as if he is now obeying me, or doing what *I* want, instead of what he wants. This would turn my switch off immediately. If he askes to know my fantasies or what I would like done to me, then works those things in at some point when and how he wants, it's a little bit different. But if he did exactly what I wanted, how I wanted, as if I were ordering something out of a catalog, I might as well be the dominant then, and he may as well be a service top. I personally would rather not experience a desired act, than to feel like he is doing it because I want it, because that changes the whole ball of wax for me. For me, the desire to have no choice, and the fulfillment I get from that, is far stronger and more meaningful than the desire for some random sexual act that I might crave. I don't want my beloved to do something JUST because I like it, but because he loves me, he has held back over the years on doing a lot of things he wanted to do. I let him know the things I enjoy or would like to try as they evolve, so he feels freer to try things with me that, in the past, he would not have 'inflicted' upon me. I don't say, "Tonight I want x, y, and z.' He is very much the captain of that ship. We do what he decides we do; I never say no. But pulling off treating me like a whore, causing me pain, and forcing me to do things I would never initiate, while still making me feel safe and loved, seems like a really delicate balancing act to me. I think it's an awful lot to ask of him, to do it all by reading my mind. ~faith
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