RiotGirl
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i just read your list and ug it gave me a terrible feeling. So basically it goes like this. You were pretty much locked in the house, continuesly with no outside "friendly" contact. You were a slave, down to the very meaning of it. He brought over other girls and played with them. While he brought over other ppl that paid to play with you? the two of you having little no contact between you two? i hate to tell you what this sounds like. Let me guess, he didnt let you keep the money? Sounds like.. <cough cough> you were a walking money tree that never had a gardener. If you're not confused. Its NOT normal, because every tree (person), whether it a money tree or not, NEEDS to be taken care of too. You were not taken care of, yet you were prolly a great source of money for him. Glad you left. There is better. Though, i cant believe i'm suggesting it, but you might want to go talk to a counselar about the job you did. Jobs like that can have major pyscological effects on a person. Jobs like that can and will ruin your sex life for the future. Self esteem, self worth. there is out there, great Dominants, that will care greatly for you, that will literally take care of you while you take care of them. That wont need a money tree, that will probably value yourself more then you do so or can imagine being so. You ARE more valuable then the price that was put on you. There are many ppl out there that will see that. Stick with the boards, try to move on, and stick with the boards. There is good ppl here. When you do start looking, stick with the ppl that come to the boards as they have a reputation and most of them are widely known. Stay here, and read, learn, find out what is more "normal" in the relationships. Many Many ppl speak out about their own relationships you will be able to get a good idea if you read alot of whats acceptable and whats not. At the moment, i have a feeling you do not know what is and what isnt acceptable. Which is how you got yourself in this mess = ) Stick with the boards and like i've said before, if you want to talk to some one, just email
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