Underumam -> RE: What's your reason for being into D/s, M/s, D/D, and BDSM? (1/26/2009 4:32:16 PM)
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I can't explain it, but one of my earliest memories that never sank into the back of mind(I think of this quite often), was from a time when I was around four years old. I remember being in some kind of a clothing store and there were female mannequins. One was in a setting position, and I instinctively crawled across it's lap and had "that special feeling", lol I always wanted to play spanking games with other kids, (I was the spank-e). I was the one who wanted to be the "patient" when we played doctor, and always had this bizarre feeling that I wanted women to abuse me. Later in life these feelings turned into cravings, then into something that I feared because I didn't know how to express myself, and the little I did, I was sharply reprimanded for as it wasn't "normal".....I finally set about exploring this side of my nature as an adult, and haven't been able to get enough of it ever since. Am I a pervert? lol..
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