IrishMist -> Brand new year...looking up? (1/15/2006 8:00:55 PM)
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Ok, so here I am, sitting here thinking about myself and life in general. My depression and consequent drinking spree at Christmas and New Years seems to be so far off, that sometimes I wonder if it ever happened. At least until I look at the bottle of Jack that is still sitting in the cabinet, almost gone...then I shudder as I remember the hangover that lasted for a week, and I know ....yes, it happened. Yes, I am on a ramble again tonight, but it's a good ramble. No, I am not drunk, unless you can count happiness as intoxication. [:)] That's right. I went and did it. I let down the barriers for just a second...and he not only walked right in as if he owned the place...he proceeded to completly break every wall, and every defense that I had put up after the death of my husband. /shakes head I am still in shock as to how he managed to do it. I think he was chipping away for awhile, and I just did not know it at the time. We had bantered around with each other in fun, bickered playfully...all in innocense...until I answered that flippin email from him. That's right. The smart-assed, opinionated, Irish Bitch has been side-swiped but good...brought to her knees in one fell swoop. But that's not the worse of it. The girl who swore she would never do a LDR outside of military requirements...suddenly finds herself in one...fate is truly cruel. But I guess the up side is that in a couple weeks, we will be together. I just FUCKING HATE THE WAITING. It sucks. Big time. Really, really, big time. [:o] [:)] ANyway, I just wanted to share with ya'll [8D]
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