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So confused - 2/20/2009 5:11:24 PM

MasterSeeker

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Hello all...
I was once here about 3 yrs ago... a slave to a wonderful man by the name of Amayos. Im sure some of you remember him. I went and left him for the normal life that I thought that I wanted. I went and dated this Jealous, want to be, dominant man.. all he was, was a fake... a man full of control issues but not let off in the ways I truely wanted. I didnt know what I wanted. I wanted that dominant relationship but then again I wanted it accepted. So, 2 yrs later we got married. Now its 7 months later and we are getting divorced. The fun jealousy, and control in the beginning got old because it wasnt true dominance, it was just his insecurities. The whole time through our relationship I would think back to Amayos and how I yearned for that dominance. So here I am, back to where I started when I was so curious about the whole S & M thing years ago. Single again, and seeking a Master. Please someone help me with what Im thinking... and please no negative responses.. I know I sound like a confused girl.

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RE: So confused - 2/20/2009 5:16:01 PM

DarkSteven

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Welcome and I hope you find what you seek.

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RE: So confused - 2/20/2009 5:42:28 PM

bardtothebone

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As a sub you're more in tune with emotions than your vanilla peers will ever
imagine, so your confusion is both just and quite understandable. Talk to the
folks here in the chatrooms and you'll soon find your feet and move on.

Good luck and good health,

The Bard

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RE: So confused - 2/20/2009 5:47:17 PM

wandersalone

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Welcome back to the forums. It may be a good idea to give yourself some time on your own before jumping into another relationship and to use this time to figure out the dominant qualities you are looking for vs jealousy/control. Are you sure that you are not simply thinking back to the past relationship because you are about to be divorced and maybe being alone is a bit scary?

I wish you all the best.

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