LinnaeaBorealis
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Joined: 10/5/2008 From: Insanity & beyond Status: offline
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Interesting question, Soft. My beliefs have evolved over the years & I'm not sure how to explain who/what I believe in. I choose to call this entity "god", since that's a term with which I am most familiar. This god watches out for me & gets my attention when I am erring, when I am not following the correct path. I'm fairly stubborn--ok, really really stubborn--so I don't always pay attention to the first whispers. In fact, one time this god had to run me over with an Oldsmobile to get my attention. LOL I have found that if I can sit quietly & listen, I will hear the answers. Doing what I am told to do isn't always easy, however. I believe that there are certain things that we each must learn & experience in each incarnation in order to move on to the next. This time, I believe that I had to cram a whole lot of experiences & lessons into this short time I have & I've done my best. I've had an incredible & blessed life despite, or sometimes because of bad things happening. I have wanted to die ever since I can remember, but for some reason I keep living & fighting & learning & experiencing. I have this incredible curiosity & am always wondering what will happen next, what twists & turns my path will take, so I keep living so that I can find out. There have been times that I felt that this god threatened my life & other times when he/she/it has saved my life & it has all been with a larger purpose. There's a lot more to my belief system than what I have put down here. If it doesn't make sense, I blame it on this silly head cold & Dayquil.
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Ring the bells that still can ring Forget your perfect offering There is a crack in everything That's how the light gets in ~~L. Cohen Just one of the yahoo's
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