InTonguesslave
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Joined: 2/6/2009 Status: offline
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i love you all - i mean it. you know its funny how things come along. today i went to a beauty parlour, i just felt like i needed to be..., i dunno, pampered i spose. this beautiful woman floated up to me, her face radiated something and her eyes shone and as i looked closer i realised that her platinum hair was white and her beautiful face might have been 40 or 60 i couldnt tell. but it was her serenity and aura that wowed me and i nearly burst into tears (laughing at myself) - external doesnt matter when you shine like that. the oddest thing yet was as i paid for my treatment one of the white feathers i pick up whenever i see them fell out of my purse and she said 'oh angel feathers!, i pick them up too' and the oddest even than that, turns out she's looking for a podiatrist and i am looking for an extra venue - funny isnt it how things happen - because now im going to work there and breath in that amazing haven once a week. so i feel really healed by you lot  , Sir sent me a wonderful email and now i get to work in heaven one morning a week. i feel really tearful though - in Sirs email he said that im now with someone who wants all of me, its not just about being wanted for my body anymore. i think that maybe thats half of it. men wanted me because my body was arranged a certain way now i dont have that body i cant believe any man would want me. that is a shallow way of thinking, i know - and im trying to grow up here and i am - and this thread has helped so much - and to think i wanted to come back and pull it, but i missed the edit window. xxxx each time i come back to read another post i feel that whatever i say will sound so inadequate, a simple thank you doesnt feel enough - but i do thank you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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aka lally
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