Jeptha
Posts: 780
Joined: 9/18/2008 From: Portland, Oregon Status: offline
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I think I'm not able to answer this clearly and succinctly...and that's a problem! Shows maybe a little lack of self awareness. I spend some time "introspecting" and thinking about my relations to others, etc.... One thing I'm lacking is people who will give me brutally honest (and accuracy would be nice, too...) feedback. I think you sometimes need that perspective from others. At this point, mostly I've surrounded myself with people who are very nice, which is great, except that they tend to butterscotch me. This is what I would pay a therapist for. If I weren't so cheap. (I don't think of that as too bad a flaw though, as I feel I'm tight, but not miserly.) I also tend to learn just enough to be marginally competent in something, and then stop learning about it. I get easily frustrated by failure. I've tried some artistic endeavors in the past, for example, where the first efforts weren't very good. So; though they showed some promise, I shut the whole thing down because the repeated frustration factor of it not coming out *perfectly* wasn't any fun for me. Since then I've come to realize that you have to do rough sketches, demos, studies, planning, etc. and keep doing it over (and freaking over), until you get it right. I've come by that lesson late, and probably quit as often as I've put that into actual practice, though. While I have some equilibrium and harmony in my life, I often achieve it by balancing extremes. For instance, I can't just drink one or two cups of coffee a day; I've got to either overdo it or not do it at all. I do have the discipline to quit, though, so I take turns bouncing between the two extremes.
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