JuliaGreenleaf
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She puts up her hand. Really I was always just a submissive woman. The trans thing was very interesting, and taught me a lot about life. Unfortunately, people can be often judgemental, and confused by things they do not understand. People who are truly transsexual are essentially born with the wrong body. This is sort of sad, but if you realize it early and intervene, it doesn't have to be so bad. Unfortunately, the more time that proceeds after puberty, the less of a chance you have of truly looking like an attractive member of your proper gender and having a good life. In a lot of ways I was lucky. I took hormones very very early on - this really helped. It cost me a lot , but was worth it . I transitioned societal 'roles' at age 21 - ie , i've lived as a woman since i was 21. I have ALWAYS had a soft and gentle soul, ever since birth - i was a geeky kid growing up, who was highly adverse to violence. I've had a boyfriend, and been a housewife. Now I'm working on building myself a career. I look back. Submissiveness and being female are different. Being female to me is simply about base essence - an essential quality of soul that defines how you see the universe beyond sexuality. Being submissive is something that gets added onto that, and interacts with it in wonderful ways. I've lived in suburbia before, but right now i'm living downtown semi in the queer community. They are building many condos and the area is slowly becoming yuppified. I go out, and find a younger sister in the park near our community centre. I wonder if she is being unfortunately forced to work as a sex worker, because so many people discriminate against trans who are young or non-white. She keeps court with the other people in the park, a beautiful princess watching over the souls of the injured in this world talking with the others, guiding the down -and out with her internal soul's light. She is beautiful, dressed in a simple, short black off the shoulders dress and silver sandals. The true beauty is her spirit - her instinctual poise , born of a soul that innately knows it is female. I hope she is one of the ones who makes it. I remember to believe in the Goddess - the original fire of purpose that sent me here. If submissives are the souls of ressurected martyrs, then perhaps, so are transsexuals.
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