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leadership527 -> RE: "Qualities of a realized Master" (6/15/2009 1:30:38 PM)
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ORIGINAL: maia09
One of the things that tripped me up for a long time was the need to label and mentally understand things that are very primal and i honestly think aren't meant to be completely understood on the brain level.
I SOO agree with this. For me, at least, I think of myself as having two simultaneous authority transfer relationships with Carol. The first is the day-to-day, pragmatic, well grounded in reality running of our marriage which happens in a pretty businesslike manner. The second is what I call our M/s relationship and it speaks to this primal part... I don't believe words exist down at that level in my brain so there is no way to verbalize it exactly. I know it's there. It feels good when I do certain "master/slave-ey" things so there must be some button inside of me it's hitting. But I have no words and I don't think of it as the primary mode of our marriage. It just lays down there in the dark every now and then glaring and snapping a bit. Sadly, I conceptualize this as a "fantasy" layer and then I think I accidently offend kinksters when I speak of it that way in relation to them.
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