KateyCaine -> RE: I Admit It I........ (11/29/2009 9:26:11 PM)
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i admit that i still worry about the current geographic distance between Master Charles and i and whether i can make Him happy or be what He needs; i admit that i feel i haven't done enough to physically be with Him in the US and this makes me fearful of losing what i have with Him; i admit i have spent money on unnecessary purchases; ; i admit that i did write silly, affectionate, inane things on His Facebook page recently; i admit that i still call my new little cat Lily, "Lilymeep", even though He tells me that her name is just plain Lily; i admit that i still feel guilty and beat myself up when i ask Him for help with my airfare, even though He says yes; i admit that i still sometimes feel inferior and insecure, and my fears of rejection and abandonment still tend to get going at a hundred miles an hour (He calls this my "Hamster cage" :) i admit that i had cream cheese last night, despite being on a diet; i admit that i do baby my Maine Coon boy a little too much - he gets away with so much!!! i admit that i have discovered that i am very much a "pain-slut", and the idea of certain things makes me feel all fluffy inside; i admit i say "meepy" and "buttonsy" waaaaay too much :) k.
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