RE: Shadow play

Collarspace Discussion Forums

Home Login Search

RE: Shadow play

View related threads: (in this forum | in all forums)

Logged in as: Guest

All Forums >> [Community Discussions] >> General BDSM Discussion >> RE: Shadow play

Page: << < prev 1 2 [3]

Message

<< Older Topic Newer Topic >>

RE: Shadow play - 9/21/2007 12:31:46 PM

LdyScarletDomina

Posts: 118
Joined: 4/22/2007
Status: offline

bita

Thank you for this. It gives me great courage to see you give this topic open airing. Its a topic I've struggled with for years. I was very severely abused (non-consensually) and kept a prisoner for 3 months by a very sick F*** calling himself a dominant. When my Master and I first discussed service two years ago, it was with the understanding that something as simple as having my wrists pinned could seriously cause me mental anguish. Even a discussion of GS and various forms of humiliation play would have me an a regression for hours. Over the course of our 2 years together he has helped me overcome a vast variety of fears and triggers and in these years of his patience the shadowing you are refering to happened less and less.

I've been very unable to do the one thing you seem strong enough to do . . . talk about it openly in forum. Master has tried to encourage me to journal, to write out some of my memories, he doesn't push the issue because it is so difficult for me to do. Talking with him feels safe, putting it down on paper feels . . . poisonous to me. Being an author my writing takes on such a life of it's own that it becomes too real for me. Just writing what I have above has made me break into a cold sweat. I hope some day to be able to put down my experiences in forum with the same bravery as you. And I hope to receive the same support and compassion that you receive.

Thank you for your courage. It means alot to those like me who are still facing their demons. I am so grateful that you and I are lucky enough to have Masters that are kind and patient and willing to work so hard to help our souls heal.

Lady Scarlet

< Message edited by LdyScarletDomina -- 9/21/2007 12:33:29 PM >

_____________________________

"Great balls of fire. Don't bother me anymore, and don't call me sugar." Scarlet O'Hara, Gone With The Wind

(in reply to murmur)