sappatoti
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ORIGINAL: nephandi I think the worst way to die would be with something happening to the brain, so that you are not you while you die. Having already experienced a little of what you are alluding to, it's not as bad as you think. In an effort to control my medical condition, I once took a prescription medication cocktail that ended up fucking up my memory, both short and long term. During one two-week period (which remains a complete blank to me even four years later) I cannot remember anything. I've also lost memories of a couple of people from my past; they come up to me but I cannot remember who they are or where I would have met them. Despite having physical evidence available (photos, letters, contracts, etc.) to constantly tell me I once knew these people -- pretty intimately in one case -- I cannot remember them or my interactions with them at all. From my perspective, all I can do is accept the fact that at one time I did know them (because the evidence is so overwhelming) but I cannot share in the emotions of those involvements. As far as I'm concerned, I'm still me... always have been and always will be. From the perspective of others, especially of those I can no longer remember, I have changed. As to whether they think the changes are a good thing or not is not relevant to this topic. To the point of dying while not being me, I won't ever see that. I'll always be me, even if I'll be missing a few memories. So dying in that state wouldn't be a bad thing. Now, as far as others who know me are concerned, having me die while my brain is playing the ultimate mind-fuck with me could possibly be more traumatic for them than me. They would be the ones who remember me as I was. They would be the ones who would see and feel the changes that have taken place. I apologize if this sounds incoherent or is a bit difficult to understand. It's the best I can do at this moment, but I did want to comment on this post while it was still fresh in my mind... so to speak.
< Message edited by sappatoti -- 1/6/2010 1:56:24 PM >
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