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There's a thrill when someone voluntarily, out of their heart, hands part of their power over to you. I can't explain it, but it's deep and beautiful. There is also something very intimate, as intimate as sexual intercourse but not the same thing, watching someone writhe in pain you gave them and they remain there, don't safeword, and offer up the experiencing of the pain for you to see. That's an amazingly intense thing, and it doesn't reduce down to a few words very well for me. I didn't know all this until I experienced it, and have learned I like certain tools and not others by "co-topping" with others at play parties. The community has helped me figure out what sort of a domme I was, and how to safely do what I find I like to do. Plus, I discovered I like having an audience. (grin)