IwantToLive
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again, i was taken out of context and my words twisted. now here is a my future or possible future. on the surface, nothing much happening. i will still be celibate by choice, living out in the boondocks, possibly a back in college studying psychology, still married, more friends locally after attending the pagan meetup groups; 2nd and 4th sundays... underneath the surface, positive life affirming meditations to create the possibility of a good future, what is created on the inside does not happen right away, there is a delay for a good reason. the movie "the secret" demonstrated what woud happen if thoughts manifested right away... it is about the law of attraction... my friend who did a tarot card reading for me... do my meditations, work with my energy, work with my chakras, basically i got a lot of work to do; by doing all that, the outcome will be good. the other way, being impulsive, obsessive, compulsive and out of control, i will keep recreating my own hell. that is not an option. there is a person on fet, he states there is a woman who will dump into my mouth; when i asked questions, the kind of questions that anyone needs to know so they know who/what they are dealing with; like basic stats, age, height, weight, etc, and what city in colorado; he said, the only thing important she is a woman that will dump a load into your mouth, then finished with understand? i wrote back, basically implying he is being dishonest and hiding something and there won't be a deal until i know more. if i am right about his ill intentioin; that is my old past programming that always sets me up for disaster, he could fit the profile of what i need to torment myself, that was the old way; now i am doing away with old programming, and creating a new way of thinking which is positive and life affirming. you can plant a seed but you cannot force it to grow... with watering and nurturing, will will grow in its own time. that is the same with all things. timing... timing... if it is not the right time for what is to happen; it won't happen and if force and impatience are used, it won't happen plus their will be hell to pay.. if it is the right time, through proper mindset, a person can have whatever they desire. as a person thinketh therefore he is. i think therefore i am. i would rather be bored and safe than be foolish to bring about the wrong excitement (creating my own disaster); the bored and safe are outward, and conscious. so i know with my innter work, i have a very bright future.... also there is a favorite catch phrase of mine; by being patient and with the right timing; that may be soon or maybe be years from now or may never happen; i will have a help mate not a hinder mate, a compliment not a detriment; my old programming would always bring about my own hell by attracting the wrong people ; hinder mates and detriments; i deserve better and will have better; as i grow and mature on the inside... btw that is mentioned in a lot of books, about inner growth and maturity... stated... i caused all my problems, improper thinking, improper emotions, improper actions, improper choices; what i am doing not is to have proper thinking, proper emotions, proper actions, proper choices... to will, to dare, to be determined, to be silent.... discretions always goes a long ways. yes, indeed, i have a very bright future. btw you look kinda like Angelina Jolie.
Billy
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