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lally2 -> RE: "Online training" (4/18/2010 3:43:50 PM)
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ORIGINAL: poshspice
I am seeking an opinion from the experienced really. As a newbie, I am subject to a whole variety of influences and opinions and I can never quite get away from the sense of paranoia that follows me round like a black cloud in all my dealings so far.
Is there ever any validity to online training or is it always a precursor to a free "fuck" as it were or at the very least an online thrill? I am involved in online training right now and have been for sometime ,whilst I will admit to learning a fair bit and he has never asked anything particularly sexual of me, am I deluding myself as to his intentions?
The reason I ask, is that of late , it has moved up a notch and become far more sexually orientated. He is local to me, claims to be in a monogomous M/s relationship and therefore unavailable. says he is disinterested in me sexually but does eventually want to train me in real time for my own benefit, although I am not "ready" yet. The added twist is I was "referred" out to him off CM by a cousin of his who found me on CM and I have never quite shaken off the feeling they are the same person.
When I write it down like this, it seems crazy but he is very smart and very convincing and I would never have considered myself easily manipulated or gullible as I have a fair amount of smarts myself. Am I more gullible than I thought perhaps?
Is all this effort he has put in , which has been plenty over a long period of time, really all for a freebie or even to claim me for himself, surely there are easier ways and frankly, I am hardly "all that" anyway.
If this is a familar senario to those more experienced amongst you, what on earth could be the motivation behind such an elaborate ruse if indeed it is a ruse?
Very interested in hearing what you think.
FR - havent read the other posts, so excuse me if im repeating something here - i ort to be in bed.
but, if he's here on CM surely he can click onto youre posting history and read this??????
on-line can be quite potent but it never worked for me particularly because im a hands on kinda gal - in terms of training online, whats it teaching you? that you can take orders and be relatively obedient, presumably you already knew that - if he's helping you to get to grips with youre nature and getting you to think about who you are and what you want should you ever get around to real life then it might be valid.
but training you in what he wants isnt necessarily going to prepare you for a real life Master who may have different ideas. with each and every man ive ever submitted to over the years its been different each and every time.
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