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SocratesNot -> RE: Slavery is bullshit (5/28/2010 10:34:17 PM)
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That might actually take awhile and I don't really view anything that I wrote before as being 'taken away' though I know that some would see it that way.
I now have a family of six that I adore and would do anything for. While not their mom, I cry in joy when we go to recitals or school plays. I now have two mother-in-laws and a father-in-law. Despite the fact, that his mother can drive us all batty, we love her dearly. I have learned that having an intellectual conversation within a small group feeds me more than ‘alone time’. I have learned to take advantage of the brief periods of alone time that I do get. I have learned what donairs, perogies and poutines are; some I liked and some I don’t really care for.
When I first met him, I was an insomniac. Sleeping more than a few hours at a time was quite rare for me even with prescribed sleep medication. He required that I get to a point that I did not need medication and that I actually slept most of the night. In less than six months, I no longer needed the medication and the doctor was able to wean me off of it. I now sleep 6 – 8 hours every night.
In live in an area that I absolutely love after being a ‘city girl’ for most of my life. I can sit in the living room and watch the river flow (even though it sometimes still boggles my mind to watch it flow north); I watch coyotes walk across the field and see a Bald Eagle fly through the valley. I can stand in the front yard and count the deer in the hills or watch a momma bear with her cubs as she looks for food. I also get to plant a buffet for the deer, I mean a garden. We had fresh tomatoes all last summer and if this summer goes well, we will have tomatoes, peppers, raspberries, strawberries and blueberries.
As I am writing this, it is 10:40 in the evening and it is still light outside. This is a source of irritation and amusement all at the same time. In the summer we are lucky if we have four hours of darkness and in the winter we have four hours of light. Speaking of winters... I am the only one who is entertained by the snow and we have snow around 6 months out of the year. How cool is that? We even had flurries last week.
I have a relationship that feeds my need and desire for structure and protocol. Those two things feed me at my core and provide a deep sense of contentment and security. There is such a rush when he gets that certain tone and say "Kyra, I want you to....".
I am in a relationship with two people who love me for who I am and not for what I do. I love them for who they are and not for what they do for me.
I am mentally and emotionally healthier than I have ever been. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I clawed my way out of a pit of hell and put myself on a path towards a healthy well-being. Then I met him and he showed me ways that were even more constructive to improving my well-being.
Honestly, there is very little that I would see as negative about our relationship and my life now and much that is extremely positive.
Knight's Kyra
Well Kyra, reading this made me really happy. I am starting to appreciate such relationships. I understand yours, and especially this need for structure and protocol is the thing that I can also relate to, because I need it too in some degree.
You learned so many things, and probably you grew as a person, too. So, I think you are enjoying your life.
I apologize for my previous lack of understanding. After all, I was a bit too concerned about this "stress on job" and "not being alone" thing. But it seems that your life is much better than it was, and you even learned to replace some of your previous needs with healthier ones.
And being in such a big family is lovely too.
You know what. I also sometimes tend to know better than some people what is better for them. So I persuade them to do something, and then they enjoy it even more than they would enjoy doing their usual stuff. I do it outside of formal M/s. But, the principle is the same.
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