laurell3
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ORIGINAL: simpleslavee As a somewhat experienced submissive, having spent 1 year in contractual servitude, live in. 24/7. I have found myself, in a relationship with a younger "initially" inexperienced Domme, in a very short period of time this inexperienced Domme has surpassed me, with my experience, into one who has her own unique, approach to Domination. Im no longer the helpful submissive, sharing my insight, i am now ..her "bitch"... i find myself totally obsessed with her, from the time i wake up to when i go to sleep. im not in a 24/7 live in arrangement...but for 24 hours out of the day, im thinking of her, yearning , desire.. there has been no sex involved... I know myself well enough that if sex had evolved my obsession wouldn't be less.. if anything more... Her training methods primarily has been around Dog training, and im very much responding to it.. im very concious of the training , and conscious of my changing, Might someone versed in this type of training see obsessing on one's Owner something that this type of training brings forth in a sub / slave ? it is so strong a state, its painful to be alone / away from my Owner. Or is Obsessing something that a submissive becoming a "slave" feels in the process. i never have felt obsession so strongly before...and it isn't jealousy.. I want to see my Owner happy. Or is Obsession just Obsession ? and for whatever reason this state of mind is my reality ...Sincerely simple. I think it's possible you're using this as your escape FROM reality. I don't think that's a good thing when it rises to the level of obsession, but I don't know you obviously. Have you talked to her about this?
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