WinsomeDefiance
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Joined: 8/7/2007 Status: offline
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I didn't read the article. I have a hard limit against inflicting stupidity on myself. Seriously, I doubt that any arrogant, ignorant sumbitch could shame and beat me up worse than I do myself. Fuck. This shit really pisses me off. This is how pretty much the last 13 or so years of my life went. Wake up in the morning and mostly crawl to the shower because it hurts to much to walk. Sit in the bathtub under a hot shower until the pain dulled enough so I could stand up. Get ready for work. Cry on the way to work, because I hurt so bad and felt so tired and fatigued. Put my make-up and a smile on in the car. Naps at lunch, to make it through the day. Drive home crying because the pain is worse, pick up my kids, take them to whatever game/practice/event they needed to be at. Cook dinner, clean house, do dishes, help with homework. Go to school to work on my degree come home, do my homework sleep Get up, do it all over again Check into the hospital on Friday after work, because my kidneys were shutting down. Check out of the hospital on Monday, and make it to work on time. repeat daily routine, until damn sheer determination just won't get me up any more. go from working 80 hours a week, to 60, to 40, to 30 to 20 over the years as my ability to push myself wanes. Finally, accept that I'm fucking too sick to get out of bed. Apply for disability - receive it within 4 months of applying. Beat myself up because I'm now a leach on society. fuck..this shit pisses me off. If anyone wants to put my name on list, fuck them. I doubt they can beat me up or shame me any better.
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