Manawyddan -> RE: Dealing with a flaky 19yo slave (9/7/2010 6:22:18 AM)
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This thread ... made me laugh and cringe at the same time. I just had to send it to -my- former teenage slave. We started off with the intentions of just doing cyber, but it quickly developed into something much, much deeper. I have been doing S&M for 20+ years (not continuously) but was new myself to D/s, and I felt myself deeply affected. She did her rituals for me, and when she slacked off, she would punish herself at my command. Then her college classes heated up. She maintained some of the more essential rituals, but found it increasingly difficult to do some of the newer or more time-consuming ones. I was faced with a dilemma, as I realised that unlike the earlier occasions, if I punished her for slacking off it would not make her more obedient; it would simply make her resentful. So I renegotiated. Some tasks dropped off the table, others went from daily to weekly. Soon, it became clear that even that wasn't enough. I called her on the table: "What do you want?" She said she didn't know. So I released her. There were some bumpy roads after that between us which I needn't go through here, but we are friends now. I have made it clear how much I want her as my slave, but I am -not- willing to take her on while she is still finding herself and unable to make a commitment. I have no doubt, given what a sensational and amazing girl she is, that she will find someone local to her very soon, and while she knows I experience some pangs of jealousy on that account, she also knows how much I want her to be happy. And she knows that if she does reach a point where she is stable in her life, and settled in her mind, and that what she decides she needs is to be my slave for the rest of her life ... I will more than likely still be there for her. I don't know if she's going to bother to read this far in the thread, or just the first page, and she doesn't have a collarme account so can't reply, but just in case you made it this far, baby, I love you.
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