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OhBeMyMind -> RE: what do you fear most ? (6/3/2006 11:04:12 PM)
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Sir says that punishing me physically would require turning my ass into something that closely resembles hamburger meat....yeah not a nice visual there.
He has a list of certain things he expects and requires, and at the bottom of the list is another list of what happens when I deviate from the list, complete with examples (quite thorough). The punishments vary from being on all fours near him yet facing away from him (I looked back once to make sure he was still there...not a good idea, but then only pushed it further by backing up till I touched him, yeah, won't do that again either).......another is placing me in a seperate room on my hands and knees away from him............and of course the one I despise the most, being placed in the corner.
Knowing I have displeased him in whatever way and not being given the opportunity to apologize, plead, touch him, beg.....just being there on my hands and knees with that damnable opportunity to think about what I have (or have not) done, and wonder what the hell he is thinking of me at that moment, wondering what the expression on his face is, and wanting nothing more than to touch him and try as hard as I can to make it better.
Later he comes to me, he talks to me about my punishment, asks me questions concerning what I did (or did not do), the punishment, how I feel, and if I intend to do it (or not do it) again.
I must say the list is helpful.....he says it is important because it is there in writing, so there is never a chance I could try to say "well I did not know"......and the list is subject to change. And I like knowing what he expects and requires, and knowing the consequences for displeasing him.
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