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Hippiekinkster -> RE: Weirdest Thing That Ever Happened To You (10/17/2010 1:33:08 PM)
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I have had so many strange, synchronistic magical things happen to me in my life I wouldn't know where to start. But the most recent has been over the last four days.
My "brother" Randall called me up from Providence, where he's visiting his son, who is in Uni there. By and by, we got talking about philosophical/metaphysical shit, which we sometimes do. We talked about Ego, how Ego keeps us from knowing who we really are; how it tricks us into thinking that we are what we do, or what we have, or who we know.
Ok, that was a strong dose of reality for me, so I settled back to think about all this stuff. Still thinking about it when the next night my real brother calls me from DC. Completely unbidden, he starts talking about Ego, how all that we see is Man's creation and our Egos keep us from seeing what is really there, how like what we perceive as solid matter is really empty space, and how we can't, in this plane, perceive the universe as it actually is. He even brings up the notion that we are just reflections of the true universe, and I know he doesn't read Scientific American, because in a recent issue there was an article about a new Physics theory that this universe is a holographic projection of what is actually real.
It's like this conversation was a continuation of my convo w/ Randall.
And these two convos, taken together, have really done a number on my head. It's like they are blasting me loose from a 30 year sleep wherein I forgot who I am. I am just shaken to the core. I mean, I have been changing some for the past 3 years (I'm not really all that kinky any more; some obsessive behavior has been "healed", for want of a better term), but this is like taking LSD after being a beer drinker for 30 years.
My friend Betsy came over yesterday to bring me some soup and to pick up some stuff I ordered for her, and by and by she must have noticed something different, because she starts kissing me and rubbing my dick and getting all seductive. Naturally I respond, but we both break it off - "What the fuck WAS that?" - 'cause we had been through it 3 years prior, and it was way too heavy and emotional and wasn't right.
I mean, this is really some heavy shit. I'm still trying to integrate all the stuff that got laid on me. It's like the heavy load is finally lifting, and I can be who I am instead of who I thought I was. Really powerful magical stuff going on.
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