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Termyn8or -> RE: A Guide for Dominant Men: How to Preserve Yourself (3/7/2011 5:49:00 PM)
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OK Benny, let's just get down to it. You are divine. How did you come by that ?
How I came to be what I am was that I was borne to a drunk Father who later proved his worth,. He was imperfect and as much as Mother was driven to hate him she refused to do so. Would have nothing to do with him for a time but eventually got on good terms for the sake of us kids. Later came the visits and I learned how to make the best pizza anyone I know has ever had. But before that it was a matter of thorwing TVs around the house (I mean the big old floor model kind) and pissing on the bookshelf. Book were my greatest "love", as my Parents taught me how to read well before kindergarden age.
Later I became a hellion and eventually had to go live with Father, because Mother simply couldn't handle me anymore. I was told by her verbatim "Go to hell with your Father", and in a way I did. We saw the nightlife, the bars, ther wildness of life. I had five DWIs before I was twenty five and I didn't give a shit who I might kill or injure. I did things, which if you want to research, I have already said that if they gave me twenty years for jaywalking we might be just about even - except for that one thing ......
Being taught well, no matter how negative the environment gave me a form of self control that is shared by very few, and a morality that comes from within, not from the outside. It is a form of objectivity that is hard to attain and I really don't believe that it can be attained without the proper strife applied at the proper time.
I have significant guilt about the things I've done in the past, and that's what makes me behave now. I fear no law enforcement because I know how to play them like a guitar. I know how to pick a lawyer and O.J. Simpson should've hired me to whack his cunt olady. And it wouldn't have taken five lawyers to get out of it anyway.
But the guilt remains, and that is why I have rejected Christianity. Ironically I do not reject Christ, I believe that he was among the greatest of Men to ever walk the Earth. However NOTHING can give Him the power to forgive me, as some of my transgresees have. And believe me this Benny, forgiveness DOES NOT remove the guilt, in fact it makes it worse. To think that I wronged this person and they let it slide, makes me wonder if I have the same capacity. Sometimes I do, and I exercise that when possible, when I know the guilt is there, when I know that they have true remorse. The rest can go fuck themselves.
What about you ? Tell us in your own words, not in a bunch of quotes and bullshit, damn, you're worse than DKen ! What does everything have to be told to you ? Think for yourself. You want to connect with people give up a little bit. What is lurking in your mind ? Why art thou holier ? Because you believe a bunch of written words that have no bearing on life now ?
It is your turn to write some words, without the haughty hubris, without Christ or anyone else. Do it by yourself. Tell us what made you what you are. And of course tell us what you are. You are not divine, and neiuther is your Christ, at least not anymore than anyone else.
Out with it, unless you have something to hide.
T^T
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