Edwynn -> RE: I renounce Christianity (10/2/2011 2:29:40 AM)
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One of the most wonderful experiences in my life was witnessing the last 3 years of my very close cousin's life, and her final departure. Sounds odd, does it not? No question, I would like her to still be here among us, but the way she handled the whole thing will stay with me forever, and the vision of her wonderful smile through the worst of it will always haunt me, in a good way, the way she insists on. She was always a cool customer, somewhat of a 'plain Jane' in some regards, but she always took interest in what her wacko cousin had to say, and had some inherent bit of 'snark' about her, but manifested in a fun way as only she could display it. I recall, two years after she had been diagnosed with ALS and told she had 3-5 years to live (turned out to be 3), my asking her mom (my aunt) what she wanted on the pizza we were ordering. My cousin said something incomprehensible, because the brain and motor function thing don't work anymore, so I asked her to repeat it. Her mouth could hardly move, but she got it out that "you are asking her to make up her mind," speaking of her characteristically indecisive mother. Don't expect the snark to go away, just because her mouth hardly works anymore. When told that she now needed a breathing apparatus to remain living, she said to unplug it. She looked and smiled at her dad, her mom, my sister, closed her eyes, and that was that. But she kept getting funnier as the situation deteriorated. I sure hope I can be like that when the time comes, even if occurring at a somewhat 'normal' age. No, I don't consider death to be a 'good' thing, but no way in hell am I going to waste the wonderful experience that my cousin gave me. She won't allow it.
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