BitaTruble
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Joined: 1/12/2006 From: Texas Status: offline
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fr There's this guy. He's just a guy but sometimes he would like for it to rain. Since he can't just make it rain on his whim, he'll beat me till I cry. That's his rain and he can bring forth, at times, a torrent of such from me. Not enough to salt the oceans so that dead things float but enough to suit his purpose. He shoots lightening bolts out of his eyes that can cause the Earth to quake.. or maybe thats just me trembling. In that moment, there is no difference. He can crush me with a word as surely as a rock and bring me back from the depths of a dive into the endorphin pool no matter how deep it goes using nothing but his voice. He can make things appear and disappear, allow me to hear or be deaf, speak or be mute. It's pretty fucking awesome actually. He's just a guy though and those things are just one facet of his whole that interacts in those ways with one facet of my whole. He is complex. He's a human. Part of him is a god, so God complex seems entirely apt as a description. Whether or not that sort of thing appeals to another is fodder for a different thread so I won't hijack this one with speculation but I certainly can buy the concept having such an intimate experience with my own perspective on the subject. There is a part of me that is your avatar as well.. a part that is less than human and who appreciates, no end, the primal and visceral animal which is allowed out on occasion. There are parts that, over the years have died - they'll never be reborn, but I take solace in the fact that there are other parts of me that have come into existance at the death of those pieces. Those new born facets have grown and thrived as they've been fed. I enjoy the balancing act for what it is and mostly strive for the even keel but going to the edges does have a thrill that it's hard to attain in other ways for me, ways that don't seem to come as easily or naturally as submitting to a dominant man who, on occasion, seems quite God-like and other occasions can be quite child-like as well. And, well, pretty much everything in between, I suspect, like most other human beings. Welcome to the boards.
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"Oh, so it's just like Rock, paper, scissors." He laughed. "You are the wisest woman I know."
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