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ownedandcollared -> A serious question (6/4/2006 8:54:07 PM)
i am an owned and collared slave. i live and serve my Master. He is wonderful, and i love Him very much. The problem, basically, is that i deeply want to die. i've tried to discuss this with Him, but He just gets mad and tells me that He doesn't want to hear it, which leaves me basically alone and doesn't change anything at all. And i don't know what to do. He was always the person that i turned to when i needed help. And i can't. i can't handle it. i've only been putting up any sort of resistance to death because of Him, because i didn't want to make Him unhappy, but it seems that He doesn't care. And if He doesn't care, i have no point in fighting. So, then, what should i do? Keep asking Him for help, and make Him angry and upset, or just let things simmer until i can't take it anymore, which would be soon, and give up the fight? if i were Yours, what would You want me to do?[:(]

subbecky -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 8:56:34 PM)
Sweets, you need to get some counseling in spite of your Master's attitude. You owe it to yourself.

Wulfchyld -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 8:56:49 PM)
Why do you want to die?

ownedandcollared -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:01:08 PM)
there are alot of reasons. my past is the biggest part of it. other pieces of my life are the others. i just can't bear it any longer

Lashra -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:07:10 PM)
You need to get some help and right away. It sounds as if that deep abyss known as depression has gotten a hold of you can you can't swim out. If he won't listen then take it upon yourself to get help, hell get to a hospital emergency room and they will get you some help. You don't want to die, not really if you did you wouldn't have spoken to him or posted this message. You want to live so give yourself the chance to heal and live life. ~Lashra

Wulfchyld -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:07:48 PM)
So it is psychological?

ownedandcollared -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:10:05 PM)
i am a total slave...i can't take anything on myself. Permission, transportation etc.

KnightofMists -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:12:33 PM)
Do you want to die.... Or is it you don't want to live with what you carry in your mind, heart and soul? Go seek ways to let go of the things that burden your mind, heart and soul. I would strongly suggest you start with professional counciling and expand from there. Life does get better when we don't carry such a weight on our shoulders.

Lashra -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:13:21 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: ownedandcollared i am a total slave...i can't take anything on myself. Permission, transportation etc. Then if he won't listen he isn't much of a Master now he is? A real Master/Mistress takes care of their property and if there is a chance that you may damage yourself, then he's not doing that now is he? Your a human being before anything else and you have a right to live. Hopefully the instinct of self preservation will kick in. ~Lashra

MistressOfGa -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:15:06 PM)
quote: if i were Yours, what would You want me to do? If you were mine, I would drive you to the nearest crisis center and hand you over to them. You are in deep need of help little one and I will tell you right now, if the only reason you are alive today is to please your Master, and no other reason, then you need to be in a lock unit where they can keep you on suicide watch. This is nothing to fool around with. Please, if your Master wont take you, then get in your car, call a cab, call a friend, whatever it takes, go to the ER. They will help you. Don't hesitate. Do this right away.

maybemaybenot -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:21:45 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: ownedandcollared i am a total slave...i can't take anything on myself. Permission, transportation etc. You are a total human being first and foremost. One who is hurting. This has nothing to do with M/s. You need to go get some help and heal yourself. Your Master should be guiding you in that direction, not putting his head in the sand. Masters are suppose to have the welfare of their slave in mind at all times. This may be something he just can't handle. Maybe he is scared, maybe he is clueless about the subject, maybe he isn't taking you seriously.. None of that matters. You can and should take care of you, even if he can't The only permission you require is your own. It would be wise to consider checking yourself into a psychiatric facility for a short time. Then transitioning to outpatient care. mbmbn

slaveofdarkhold -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:40:29 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: ownedandcollared i am a total slave...i can't take anything on myself. Permission, transportation etc. Unless you are chained to the desk and physically cannot get away, just go. Disobey him if you have to. I'm a slave too so I understand the meaning of what I'm saying but believe me, your life is more important than any rules. You're online so you obviously have some means of contact. Call your mother, your friend, a cousin, anyone. Google for a chrisis line in your area. Call an ambulance if you have to. If you have depression, which it sounds like you have, this will not go away on it's own. If you think you're a danger to yourself, go get help. If you need to justify it, tell yourself you are saving your Master's property, as is your duty.

marieToo -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:40:38 PM)
You are 19 years old and you are living as a slave?? No wonder you are depressed and want to die. You have no car, no choices, no nothing. Good god, you need to be out living your life, figuring out your place in the world as a person first , figuring out who you are, getting an education and/or career in line, hanging out with your friends and discovering yourself before you can commit yourself to someone, especially in an Ms context, and especially at your age. Go home to mom and dad, ask them for help. And run far and fast from the one you call "Master".

SweetSarijane -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:47:34 PM)
Get help. Call a crisis line, go to an ER. Depression is not something to fool around with or ignore. You are a human being first. Go now and get help. If you're reaching out on a message board, you can make a phone call, get in your car, call a cab, call family and go get help.

smilezz -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:53:20 PM)
grits my teeth let's see where this goes before i jump in. Jeeezzzusss... ~smilezz~

petwolf22 -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:53:48 PM)
This is probably not the appropriate time to judge someone's lifestyle choices. Get help, call 911 if you have to....i think they'll send an officer to your home to help get you to where you need to be. good luck owned

artglfr -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:53:49 PM)
Your Profile states you are "very very happy", what has changed to make you feel so unhappy? If your Dom doesn't understand your unhappiness "Get Counseling ASAP!" Talk to him honestly. If he gets mad because you are being honest that should be addressed. You are 19 and yes the World can seem jaded, faded and uncaring but there is a lot of good here and you are going to experience it. Just give life a chance and realize things will get better. The World seems to have an ebb and flow sorta like "Laugh now...cry later" so you are crying now...good get it out and savor the pain but learn from it and grow and anticipate getting to the next plateau where you get to alugh again. go to a concert, see friends, a comedy club or camping anything to break the hold on you now. good luck

marieToo -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 9:58:21 PM)
quote: ORIGINAL: petwolf22 This is probably not the appropriate time to judge someone's lifestyle choices. This is not the appropriate time to speak for me. or assume you know where Im coming from. If you read her post carefully, the reason she feels she cant get help is because her "Master" (lifestyle choice related) doesnt feel she needs help. And her "Master (lifestyle choice related) wont let her take transportation. And her "Master"(lifestyle choice related) has her so convinced that he knows whats best for her that she doesnt feel she has the right or the freedom (lifestyle choice related) to go and get herself help. Her lifestyle choice, is the root of her problem, and is what is keeping her from seeking help.

ownedgirlie -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 10:01:27 PM)
He may not be equipped to handle it. You are basically telling him you want to take away from him the thing he wants most - you. When I start self depricating, my Master becomes furious with me. I am not allowed to criticize or harm what belongs to him. How old is your Master? This may be too big for him to know what to do with. Often times fear is exhibited in anger. I agree with the others, go seek help from someone who can and will help you. At 19 I wanted to die also. In my 20s I tried to. 20 years later I am a vibrant, happy woman, touching many lives and being touched by many others. I just read a quote by Winston Churchill - about 15 minutes ago, actually: "When you are going through hell, keep going." There IS the other side of the pit. You CAN reach it. And you want to reach it, or you wouldn't be asking for help. The issue is, you don't see the other side yet, so all you know is that you want the pain to end...and now. But it does end. It takes work but life can be beautiful. I know to be true - I'm on that other side now.

MistressOfGa -> RE: A serious question (6/4/2006 10:17:23 PM)
quote: There IS the other side of the pit. You CAN reach it. And you want to reach it, or you wouldn't be asking for help. The issue is, you don't see the other side yet, so all you know is that you want the pain to end...and now. But it does end. It takes work but life can be beautiful. I know to be true - I'm on that other side now. Owned, this is beautiful. Your Master is very lucky to have you and your family is very lucky to have you here as well. I'm glad you decided to keep going.

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