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My sorry past! - 6/30/2012 1:31:19 PM

hardrawkin

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Hi all. I wont waste any time pussyfooting. I am a lifelong deviant. I was abused as a boy of 6 by a so called child guidance "Professional;"My sexuallity was a problem up to my early thirties and I struggled with gay impulses. My hetro experiences were largely unsatisfactory and my only real satisfactions came from fetish and kink. My first straight "Affair" rather hit me like a bullet. She was 10 years my junior, petite, demure and delightful.
It inevitably ended too soon and I was almost suicidal. For a very long time, I resorted to Prostitutes, and I found a girl who was into moderate bondage.Strangely enough, we develpoed a very strong relationship built on trust and discretion.
She was a lot younger than me, and a recovering addict.It is an awful paradox, but I kind of loved that girl.Our love making was torrid, urgent and so so satisfying.It is difficult to admit but now I suffer mind numbing sexual frustration and loneliness. I do not want to go back to hunting for prostitutes. I just want to find a girl for mutual fun. I really enjoy Bondage and restraint, and I want to meet a sub or a Masochist. I am not the least interested in the slave/master scene, in fact as soon as I see the "Owned by, ridden by, trained by" Tosh, I move on! I am 6 feet tall, quite beefy, well endowed and pretty fit. I am 62 yrs old. I have quite a whicked sense of humour and I love taking the piss.
I take BDSM seriously enough, but I find myself blessedly relieved after a session and I can relax and have a good laugh! Hardrawkin

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RE: My sorry past! - 6/30/2012 1:34:50 PM

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Welcome!

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RE: My sorry past! - 6/30/2012 1:36:49 PM

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Hello and welcome to the forums. If you do have a wicked sense of humor please stay and partake in the festivities with us.

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RE: My sorry past! - 6/30/2012 2:55:21 PM

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Your unabashed intro is refreshing. Welcome aboard. If your humor holds, you may find you like it here.

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RE: My sorry past! - 6/30/2012 3:04:43 PM

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Welcome to CM

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RE: My sorry past! - 6/30/2012 3:09:18 PM

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Welcome to the discussion side of CM, hard.

Your intro was a bit TMI for me, but then I am rather reserved in some ways. No matter, as someone else said, you will find plenty of opportunity to exercise your sense of humor here on the forums.

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RE: My sorry past! - 7/2/2012 7:27:57 AM

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Welcome hard.

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RE: My sorry past! - 7/3/2012 6:05:10 AM

kalikshama

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How you chose to introduce yourself made me think of the concept of Woundology in Carolyn Myss's "Why People Don't Heal and How They Can," which I found very helpful. The first chapter is available for free here: http://www.nytimes.com/books/first/m/myss-heal.html

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RE: My sorry past! - 7/3/2012 6:35:35 AM

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Welcome to the forums. I would like to wish you the best of luck in finding what you seek.

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RE: My sorry past! - 7/3/2012 7:17:42 AM

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