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LadyPact -> RE: Sadism & Power exchange. (8/20/2012 12:49:40 AM)
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ORIGINAL: ARIES83
LadyPact you mentioned "Top space"
could you describe what that is like for you?
First time I've heard of it but it's already got me
thinking about what it might be for me.
I definitely do think i'm trying to get a specific
mental state, the word "primal" is sticking but I
might have to read the primal thread to say for
sure if that's touching on it.
I might say a "primal misogyny" but theres to
many negitave characteristics in that word so I
probably need to pick up the dictionary and
have a poke around.
Does anyone else have a type of "top space"
that you can get to and if so what is it for you?
-ARIES
Let's start here. What do you know about sub space? Are you familiar with the chemical reaction and reception in the brain that causes subs to get 'floaty' during play.
The same thing can happen on the top side. It's the same rush of endorphins. Those endorphins flood certain receptors in the brain producing something of a high. It can feel like runner's high and some will say that it's the physical exertion of the top that does it. My retort to this is to ask why then can some tops (such as Myself) obtain this state when doing something like needles, when I'm not doing the workout of impact play.
Endorphins are those happy chemicals in the brain that are meant for the pleasure receptors. They are actually the same process that allow synthetic drugs/alcohol to work. That and the effect of runner's high on athletes is where most of the research comes from. There's a good bit out there. I apologize for not having the reference links at hand. Somebody on these forums who is better at google than I am will hopefully help out.
This next part is going to sound a bit nuts. (I'm kind of glad Kana showed up first so it doesn't look like I'm crazy.) I am what I tend to call "endorphin blessed". That means My brain is really receptive to it. If one would compare it to alcohol consumption, I can be anything from a little tipsy to roaring drunk. True story. I literally walked into a wall once. Depending on the scene, I can fly so high from a scene the night before that I can wake up still floaty. On a rare occasion, in the right mood and frame of mind, I don't even have to play to achieve space.
Physical signs vary. One constant is that My pupils dilate. My eyes also change color. I'm told that they become the most brilliant shade of green. My other half can look at My eyes and tell if they are lit up or not.
I'm going to add a couple of disclaimers here because they always come up. No, I don't drive like this. I'm just as bad as any sub on the road who just came from playing really hard. That part can be rather inconvenient when I play away from home. Out of the blue, a scene can go far better than expected, the stars align, and I end up having to hang out for a few hours to get My feet back on the ground because I'm not fit to drive a car. There are some folks who know Me in person on this site who have seen this.
No, it really doesn't prevent Me from giving proper aftercare to the bottom. In fact, it's actually a cool reminder that floaty can equal drop later, so let's remember the water, warmth, whatever we've discussed. It tends to make Me excellent at looking after their needs, even though I often neglect My own.
No, this altered state doesn't make Me less accurate or precise. In fact, I tend to think it zones Me in one the scene and the bottom. Think tunnel vision.
As for what it feels like, I don't really have a standard answer. For example, for Me, needle space feels different than impact play space. It varies according to the type of play, the person I'm with, how much I can let go.....
This part, I have no direct research to fall back on. These are just theories of Mine.
It seems to Me that those of us who are sadists or masochists are just wired slightly different in the brain. Chemically, something is a bit different up there. This may be why we have this altered state from play.
My other theory is from pheromones. That's entirely wrapped up in sensors related to smell and chemical reaction from that sense. How many times has someone said the smell of fear turned them on? Have you ever asked yourself exactly why that was? Why do tops feel a greater float when the scene is over sometimes? Curled up with the bottom when we breathe them in?
There's more to this than many of us will ever know. It can be absolutely fascinating, with the whys and hows. Far more complex than we will ever reveal on a message board. I hope, in some small way, I have answered you.
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