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ORIGINAL: chelita30

Try this..

http://www.collarme.com/journal.asp?m=de&bhcp=1

I came off CM a while ago and have yet to re-write my profile. My journal entries still seem to be there though...

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ORIGINAL: chelita30

Just to be clear from the start, this post is part-rant, part-question.

Just over a year ago I took a big step - I accepted that I am submissive and came out into the bdsm community both online and locally. Now I just feel incredibly frustrated. I have a busy personal life as a single parent with small children and have found casual play - when I can get any - to be pretty disappointing so far (see the in-depth rant on my journal here - http://www.collarme.com/personals/m/de/journal.htm). I was in a relationship for about 3 months but it didn't work out. So I am a single slut with little free time and not a great liking for casual play or for "the scene". I have a high (and very perverted) sex drive and am having trouble coping with that. Vanilla friends my age with kids don't seem bothered about sex anymore. I feel like a freak.

I guess I'm hoping that some of you more experienced subs can identify with what I'm saying and give me some advice. It's not that I haven't tried to keep things in check, my best friend at present is a 6 inch rubber cock , but this is about so much more than mere physical sensation....

Anyway, I'll try to answer your questions. What we do can be addictive, in a way. Being without power exchange is difficult...before I found bo, if I didn't scene with friendly bottoms to deflect some energy (my clothes stayed on), when I was chatting with others who were possibilities here at CollarMe I would go into frenzy. It was like...my inner Klingon/predatory nature driving me to tear down with teeth and nails any obstacle, lol. It was intense and maddening. I would have to step away from the computer for a week or two at a time until I got myself under control again.

I have seen many submissives going through "sub frenzy" when they are in between, or when some Dominant who is not the right one is sniffing around them, pushing some buttons.

As for the sex stuff...buy lotsa batteries and have fun. Get different vibes (get a Hitachi with the G-spot attachment, mwahahaha). Enjoy your own body and wear yourself out...until you find the right person. In the meantime, if scening with Mr. Right Now isn't helping you, it's something you will have to think about. Maybe you will be better off focusing on getting to know the person first before bringing kink into it. Good luck.

It took me a long time to find the one I was looking for...but he was worth it. And I give him cookies.

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ORIGINAL: chelita30

I think I've done it now?!

Yep, I can read them now, but I don't know if the clickies will take me there, lol, I just clicked on your profile to go see.

Btw, your journal entries are a damn fine read. In this thread I can feel your frustration and maybe some burn out...I used to go through that every few months, so hang in there...it will pass. I want to comment on one of your journal entries...some of us are not into age play (or at least, not in our present relationship) but we do baby/nurture/whatever our submissive.

Maybe the one you are looking for will be a late bloomer and won't discover BDSM until sometime this year, then will show up at CollarMe and snatch you up.

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ORIGINAL: kalikshama

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So the question is how to re-channel your sex drive while you are waiting for Relationship Dom?

That's a big part of it, yes, but not the whole picture. I think it's also to do with an intense desire to just *be* that part of me. And no amount of fucking with a rubber cock or playing about with the hitachi can resolve that. I think cardio would help, right now I have no way of getting to the gym minus the kids so maybe I need to consider something I can do at home (ugh!). I think boxing would be a good sport to take up right now.....I bet I could fit a punchbag inmy bedroom :-)

@Cynthia I identify very much with what you said. I am quite an intense person so do find myself driven wild at times! That is why I left CM in the first place. I'm not sure CM, Fet or anything that titillates without satisfying is good for me right now. But the chances of running into my dream Dom at the school gates in Northern Ireland are practically zilch! I'd say there is even less chance at the local munches :-)



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maybe I need to consider something I can do at home

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ORIGINAL: SimplyMichael

Ya make choices...

For me, casual play and casual sex dont do much for me...so I wait.