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RE: Internal battle - 10/19/2012 1:09:50 PM

ThundersCry

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ORIGINAL: DarkSteven

First off, welcome to collarme!

With that out of the way... you can't just "submit". You have to submit TO someone. And you will meet all kinds of men that you can't see yourself submitting to, until you find the one you CAN see it happening.

In other words, you can't get submission from yourself only.

Great answer DS!
You amaze me, I have watched you since you first entered here and to see where you have went since then well...its amazing.
Your a good guy...

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RE: Internal battle - 10/28/2012 4:43:32 PM

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my best subs have been business people who are in control of a lot of people or who have huge responsibility. It sounds like you need to find a very controlling DOM THAT YOU TRUST AND CAN SUBMIT TO (easier said than done since I've not met many DOMS like that) sorry not much help except to encourage you to keep looking and trust your gut instinct

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RE: Internal battle - 10/29/2012 7:06:00 AM

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Thanks to you all. Kana beautifully put. I understand and accept my desire to submit making it into reality is just harder than I imagined. Slowly things are coming together its just a process.

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RE: Internal battle - 10/29/2012 11:48:18 AM

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ORIGINAL: SacredDepravity
Walls are only needed when there is not peace in the land

Yay!

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RE: Internal battle - 11/11/2012 8:31:51 AM

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Normal that.

But if that not enough try some trepanning with a rusty cork screw - works wonders - I am now missing the rational part of my brain and can travel through time, at will, and eat pots and pans for tea.

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RE: Internal battle - 11/24/2013 8:57:56 AM

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First I want to apologize for the extended delay in responding. I decided to take a step back as I was getting to get overwhelmed. The fantasy was amazing, the reality too intense.

Thank you, your answer solidified my feelings. For me submission will never be "casual" it will have to be to someone, but I realize now it will not be just anyone. My fight or flight response is way to high. I've realized I crave natural Dominance. Despite what I've heard, I believe there is a difference. Anyone can give orders that's easy, I need one that can consume me & any form other form Dominance won't suffice, the slightest hint of weakness and they would lose me.

My goal when I posted this was more of reclaiming the mind frame that I had lost along the way. The one that had been stripped away from pains of the past. Life has a way of changing you albeit you knowing it sometimes. :-( The conflicting views of womanhood I was facing when I started searching for a Dom and those subsequently imposed on me by my first Dom left my spirit broken. Trauma tends to do that. I realized my obstacle was guilt for allowing someone else's bad behavior, however that has been thankfully corrected.

What I found was a unique journey of self discovery, created for women by women. That helped me look at me, and learn more about myself, my power, my beauty, & the strength I already have, but overlooked. I've learned that until ones mind is free from the battlefield of the mind she cannot submit to anyone.

This dynamic sadly poses as a breeding ground for bullies, a users, and a certain level of borderline criminally insane that could scare the best horror film producer. I have accepted that although I may not choose a particular fetish I'm am no less submissive or worthy. And just because I am submissive does not mean I shouldn't get what I need out of this dynamic. I respect stylistic prose in terms of how a Dom rules but a man who has no respect overall for the gender he is born from, well my comment instead very "submissive" so i'll pause.

Bottom line is I want a level of love and respect and that is what I need and it is okay. If within 3 days of meaning me I have to strip naked before you we'll your not the one for me, and that's ok. To each their own. Patience is a virtue & now I have it so we shall see what happens. :-) Wish me well. Thx again.

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RE: Internal battle - 11/24/2013 9:03:22 AM

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Note to other posters - while this is an old thread, original posters are allowed to come back and reopen old threads with updates.

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RE: Internal battle - 11/24/2013 9:12:07 AM

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Good luck op in figuring out what you need in a partner so you can only focus on guys who have what you need.

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