Lockit
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Joined: 5/7/2007 Status: offline
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Firsttimeslave, you are young, but you have been on site for three years. In that time it seems you have learned a few things. You state that you want some sort of relationship and are tired of just jerking it and that you won't top from the bottom. Your list of likes has two things that are not sexual or kink items. Seeing this as a whole, it does make me wonder what you have been doing in the last three years and how that's gone. I find one thing in your profile that basically points out that you want more than a jerkfest and all else appears at least to me that that jerkfest has been uppermost on your mind, including this thread. Now... I am not saying a jerkfest is wrong because if you and others wish to do it, go for it, however if you want to put some reasoning to the jerkfest, then it seems a bit challenging to me. It is hard to believe unless you haven't been real active on the site, that this is the first time you have come across this type of situation as it happens... a lot. In seeking some sort of relationship, I cannot know exactly what you mean and your profile and this thread doesn't elaborate on that, so it could be a regular jerkfest of kinky stuff to a relationship that includes a more serious connection. I don't see a more serious connection the way you have gone about this situation with this dominant. After a short time of back and forth with a dominant, you willingly jumped in and did a task. Without establishing much of anything in the way of knowing for sure this dominant was who or what they said they were, you were willing to go to aspects of kink/proving self/whatever, before you EACH had proven something. Wouldn't it be beneficial to get that cleared up and out of the way BEFORE you jump into any sort of task? People will take advantage, especially when we walk right into it. Now... what does a naked picture prove? For that matter what does a cam shot of someone with a piece of paper prove? If you only want to be assured the person is the gender or appearance you believe they are... well I guess it does that, but it doesn't prove more than it does prove. What is the worth of any of this to you? What are you seeking? You are on defense in a sense when you shouldn't be in my opinion and the reason for that is, you willingly walked into jumping into things before you knew for sure what you were doing or jumping into. How can you point at someone else and question if they are right to ask this when you haven't questioned yourself from what it seems, on whether you are right to do this? So, you are now pulling back or looking to be rescued and you think a picture of them with a place card is going to do what? You have given the impression that you will do what they want because they tested you... you jumped before you thought about it. Now you can back track... but do so knowing that you assisted in the backwards state of affairs and you are most likely not victim yet. You have the power to assure that from this point on... It depends on what you really want. You might want to think about that... BEFORE you do tasks for strangers.
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