Lucifyre
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I do in fact have PCOS. My problem is likely hormone induced depression. Because I get like this rather frequently. Some days it's just harder to get through it than others...like today. I have some other stuff in my life that's completely stressing me out as well which makes getting out of bed even more difficult. This too shall pass, just like it has for years. If I could overcome this insomnia shit the depression wouldn't be such a weight I'm sure. And when I say insomnia, what I really mean is, if I could figure out what the fuck it is that wakes me up every 2 1/2 hours and actually get a real good nights rest instead of feeling like a zombie every single day, that would be a great start. It's not just 1 thing either. Sometimes I just wakke up, other times it's something like a noise outside, or my husband snoring too loudly, or I have to get up and pee, or my roomates made some stupid ass noise, or I've had a bad dream...the list of things that wake me is endless and it's frustrating as all hell...especially the nights that I just wake up for no good reason. BTW, I refuse to take the metformin, it makes me really sick, I'm 42 and done having kids so I don't particularly give a shit about treating the PCOS any more. I went through the fertility treatments to have shorty (took 8 years for him to finally show up but it was worth the wait) Even on the drugs, the hair doesn't stop growing on my chin or thinning on my head, and even after surgery I am still having problems with extra padding around my waistline even though I eat right and am exercizing 4 days a week. For some reason my cycles have come back like clockwork though...no treatment, they just came back on their own, no idea why...they could have stayed the hell gone. So, IMO, taking the drugs to treat the PCOS isn't worth what they make me feel like for them to not really do anything. This isn't the blues though, it's a regular thing. I'm tired of it. I don't want meds. I just needed a place to be able to express my grumpiness without dishing it out on Mr again like usual I guess. He hears it enough as it is. His extra task for me today was to take a nap. Oh, and if the weather would improve and warm the hell up (I'm in Florida, 45 degrees is NOT acceptable!) I could go sit out by the pool in the fresh air...yes, that really does help. Luci
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