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RE: a rose by any other name.. - 7/8/2006 5:32:32 PM

gypsyssoul

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But were you totally devoted to the pleasures of your man?

this is just me ...

i seek to please in it i get pleasure ...

maybe it was how i was raised i don't know

i just know that every relationship i have been in

i have been the same

wow ... ok so i have had a few relationships

this is just one of the first times i can put a name

to what i seek .. am

hope you find your answers

:: goes back to her corner .. to watch

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RE: a rose by any other name.. - 7/8/2006 9:09:14 PM

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I love your avatar gypsy. That's exactly how i picture Maximus to look in the James Patterson books about the flying kids.

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RE: a rose by any other name.. - 7/9/2006 12:04:30 AM

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the reason i have been thinking about these things is that i am going through some ch ch ch changes....and i am rather ashamed of this but i believe i was really Domming my past relationships by being so subserviant.
.i mean ..i always felt in control..does that make sense?
and it exhausted me.
it was maybe as simple as i needed to make myself irreplacable..
because the difference is that now that i am a "submissive" (named..titled ,placed)
i feel truly comfy taking orders and it feels good..fills the empty so to speak.
and before i knew about bdsm i was so damned driven,almost obsessive, about being perfect.and no one ever ordered me to do anything because i always did what they wanted before they even knew what it was that they wanted...
.so my next question ..is how can i feel normal now by being part of this lifestyle where we are certainly not normal by popular standards?
i dont get it.
and could some of my need to be punished come from feeling so guilty about controlling all of my relationships like i did in the past?
because i was really manipulative ,even though i was so determined to be the best lil wifey, it was not for the right reasons, was it?
does this matter?
now i have to wonder , am i really a submissive?
or am i just trying on hats on here?

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RE: a rose by any other name.. - 7/9/2006 6:52:53 AM

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i've always been submissive... though i have not always been welcomed in nilla relationships to show it.
luckily, with patience and self-learning, i have a relationship now that is gradually allowing me to explore more and more of myself and my level of submissiveness.
so looking back, i always saw it... felt it... and now i can live it moreso than before
sincerely
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