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ORIGINAL: L8bloomer

I had an entirely different take on the OP.

My impression is that you've become aware (dare I say starting to awaken) of how this life is finite and how there are aspects of your life that need to be fulfilled and haven't been for a while. I hesitate to say this because of others' skeptical view (and possibly your own) but I will anyway: your soul is speaking to you and you're hearing it.

Is there something wrong with you? I'd say it's more that there is something right about you for coming to these realizations.

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ORIGINAL: DarkSteven

Well, it may be that you are feeling life getting short. Or it might be slight depression. Have you had a physical lately?

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ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

Can anyone relate to any of this insanity or do I just need to go have a beer and not think any more today?

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Like, dammit I am fucking fat. I am working on that, not as hard as I could, but have been losing slowly and not regaining any for a year, probably lost a total of 35# ish.

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ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

I didn't see any passive aggressiveness in his reply. Perhaps you missed the part that these have been dates from POF. While I am hoping to find a domly type, and I dropped plenty of hints on my profile, I would laugh in the face of a man who did more than drop subtle hints for the first few dates. If he offered to take me shopping, I would run for the fucking hills.

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ORIGINAL: DaddySatyr


I've been "stewing" about this for a day or two, now ...

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ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

I didn't see any passive aggressiveness in his reply. Perhaps you missed the part that these have been dates from POF. While I am hoping to find a domly type, and I dropped plenty of hints on my profile, I would laugh in the face of a man who did more than drop subtle hints for the first few dates. If he offered to take me shopping, I would run for the fucking hills.

... and I gotta tell ya: Even if we met on this site, there's no way I'm going to start "making demands" (even little ones) until I've seen one of those (what I call) "little signs of submission".

I will say this, though: Even with ladies to whom I'm not attracted and with whom I'm not even on a date, I ask them to do me the favor of helping me to live up to my upbringing. I hold doors open. I hold chairs. I walk in front of a lady going down stairs and behind her, going up (I have to admit that this affords me a nice view of her ass so ... BONUS!).

If a lady doesn't co-operate with me on this, I tend to drift off; whether it's a dating situation or just a friendship. When I'm out and I see a male and a female ... show up at a restaurant and he doesn't go around the car to open her door and offer a hand to "help" her out, my first thought is: "Either this guy is a real yum-yum or whoever raised him dropped the ball".







Screen captures (and pissing on shadows) still RULE! Ya feel me?

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... and I gotta tell ya: Even if we met on this site, there's no way I'm going to start "making demands" (even little ones) until I've seen one of those (what I call) "little signs of submission".

I will say this, though: Even with ladies to whom I'm not attracted and with whom I'm not even on a date, I ask them to do me the favor of helping me to live up to my upbringing. I hold doors open. I hold chairs. I walk in front of a lady going down stairs and behind her, going up (I have to admit that this affords me a nice view of her ass so ... BONUS!).

If a lady doesn't co-operate with me on this, I tend to drift off; whether it's a dating situation or just a friendship. When I'm out and I see a male and a female ... show up at a restaurant and he doesn't go around the car to open her door and offer a hand to "help" her out, my first thought is: "Either this guy is a real yum-yum or whoever raised him dropped the ball".

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ORIGINAL: DaddySatyr


I've been "stewing" about this for a day or two, now ...

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ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

I didn't see any passive aggressiveness in his reply. Perhaps you missed the part that these have been dates from POF. While I am hoping to find a domly type, and I dropped plenty of hints on my profile, I would laugh in the face of a man who did more than drop subtle hints for the first few dates. If he offered to take me shopping, I would run for the fucking hills.

... and I gotta tell ya: Even if we met on this site, there's no way I'm going to start "making demands" (even little ones) until I've seen one of those (what I call) "little signs of submission".

I will say this, though: Even with ladies to whom I'm not attracted and with whom I'm not even on a date, I ask them to do me the favor of helping me to live up to my upbringing. I hold doors open. I hold chairs. I walk in front of a lady going down stairs and behind her, going up (I have to admit that this affords me a nice view of her ass so ... BONUS!).

If a lady doesn't co-operate with me on this, I tend to drift off; whether it's a dating situation or just a friendship. When I'm out and I see a male and a female ... show up at a restaurant and he doesn't go around the car to open her door and offer a hand to "help" her out, my first thought is: "Either this guy is a real yum-yum or whoever raised him dropped the ball".

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ORIGINAL: DomKen
I got set up on a date with a sub by mutual friends a while back who thought we'd like each other and the date went terribly and it got back to me that she thought I wasn't a dom because I was polite to her during the date. I wondered what she expected? Was I supposed to spank her or something the first time we met in a public place?

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ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

I am usually an upbeat "it is what it is" kinda gal. But, for the past week I have been wondering just exactly wtf is wrong with me.

Not a drowning in sorrow kinda thing, but more of a reality kind of thing. Like, dammit I am fucking fat. I am working on that, not as hard as I could, but have been losing slowly and not regaining any for a year, probably lost a total of 35# ish.

I don't really enjoy people. The only time I care about going out and having a drink is when there is a good band. I will manage to have conversations during breaks, but when the music is playing, I hit a zone that is damn near impenetrable. I love that zone.

Love my job 99 days outta every 100. I count enjoying it that much as more money per year. It makes just barely keeping a step ahead of the bills not quite as disturbing!

Started making my self go on dates from POF. Been on several 1st dates, a few 2nd, and a couple of 3rds. No fireworks with anyone, but a couple of them were not horrible.

As I ponder the whole "dating at 52, while fat and anti social", thing (watch for the book) hahaha. As I ponder that, I wonder wtf is wrong with me. I cannot decide if I am batshit crazy and scare folks off, or if I am so comfortable alone, I put them off in some other way.

Got to thinking, I don't think I have ever "dated" much. In my younger days, I fucked who I wanted to fuck, usually on the first time meeting them and sometimes we ended up spending a few weeks, months, or hell 20 years with the ex together.

I cannot find that fuck on the first meeting place again I don't think. I did have a nice relationship with a domly dude for a good while, but I realized today that that was 9 fucking years ago! 9 MOTHERFUCKING YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!! How do 9 years fly by like that?

Anyhow, for the first time in 12 years, I actually miss having someone in my life, and I am afraid that 12 years not caring about it has made me sit around and wonder wtf is wrong with me.

Can anyone relate to any of this insanity or do I just need to go have a beer and not think any more today?

welcomed, unless you happen to be a total douchecanoe.

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ORIGINAL: JstAnotherSub

dammit Lookie, if I looked like Pamela, and was domme, I would own yer sweet ass! lolol

I think i am just at a point where changes are needed. I am actively seeking a transfer after 15 years in the same department, 10 as a manager. Hoping to transfer to accounts payable in the same department, I am realizing that I am fed up with trying to get people who do not give a fuck to do their jobs. I can make more money doing something where I just have to worry about me doing my job.

Going to tell my supervisor as soon as I can, thinking she will support me, and the department head already said she would love to have me on her team, because I will understand it right off the bat.

Still aint sure exactly what all is the fuck wrong with me, but I am going to bite off little chunks til I get to the creamy middle of it all!