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ORIGINAL: boomer200625

A couple of years ago I discovered the world of kink. On collarme, I found a Dom and started talking to him. We started an online relationship. It quickly grew to M/s. I was naive and still feel I am. He and I wanted 24/7 with love in an M/s relationship. He said I was a perfect fit for him. But he has not shared his name with me, nor any personal information in 3 years. He has ordered me to drive 3 hours to meet him in the city he resides in, and give him $$$, all the time keeping my eyes closed. He has me occasionally rent a room and service him. I had an emotionally abusive marriage that I had gotten out of 6 months before I met him.

He has helped me get a better job, by making me accept more responsibility at work, and has helped me invest and move funds around my 401k to make it grow, taught me some about the stock market, and helped me be a better mother to my son.

My family has never been a good source of support for me, but I love them. He has told me not to have contact with them. I have expressed interest in seeking out counselling for myself to help me move past the previous emotional abuse, and he says no, it will make me worse. He says all I need to do is accept Jesus as God. If I do not, then I deserve the emotional sickness I am in.

It is sad that it has taken me this long to realize that he may not love me as he says, but I believe I see it now for what it is. I would just like to have confirmation from a Master here please. I know I am doing the right thing by deciding to end it.

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ORIGINAL: boomer200625

Thank You!

Yes I recognize that I am drawn to certain types of users. I want to find out the why and move on and heal. Today was the day I had the convo with him online about seeking therapy, and his response shocked me. On one hand I feel foolish for letting it go on for so long, on the other I feel so relieved that I finally see this for what it is. I want to take ownership for my mistakes and not make the same ones again.

I am seeking help now.

and I thank everyone for their responses, I don't feel so alone in this anymore.

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ORIGINAL: boomer200625
Gauge I thought that was how it should be

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ORIGINAL: boomer200625

A couple of years ago I discovered the world of kink. On collarme, I found a Dom and started talking to him. We started an online relationship. It quickly grew to M/s. I was naive and still feel I am. He and I wanted 24/7 with love in an M/s relationship. He said I was a perfect fit for him. But he has not shared his name with me, nor any personal information in 3 years. He has ordered me to drive 3 hours to meet him in the city he resides in, and give him $$$, all the time keeping my eyes closed. He has me occasionally rent a room and service him. I had an emotionally abusive marriage that I had gotten out of 6 months before I met him.

He has helped me get a better job, by making me accept more responsibility at work, and has helped me invest and move funds around my 401k to make it grow, taught me some about the stock market, and helped me be a better mother to my son.

My family has never been a good source of support for me, but I love them. He has told me not to have contact with them. I have expressed interest in seeking out counselling for myself to help me move past the previous emotional abuse, and he says no, it will make me worse. He says all I need to do is accept Jesus as God. If I do not, then I deserve the emotional sickness I am in.

It is sad that it has taken me this long to realize that he may not love me as he says, but I believe I see it now for what it is. I would just like to have confirmation from a Master here please. I know I am doing the right thing by deciding to end it.

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ORIGINAL: JeffBC

Yeah, but as much as I normally agree totally with Gauge on this one I think he's a crack smoking monkey. I have no idea how things "should" be.

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ORIGINAL: Musicmystery

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ORIGINAL: boomer200625

A couple of years ago I discovered the world of kink. On collarme, I found a Dom and started talking to him. We started an online relationship. It quickly grew to M/s. I was naive and still feel I am. He and I wanted 24/7 with love in an M/s relationship. He said I was a perfect fit for him. But he has not shared his name with me, nor any personal information in 3 years. He has ordered me to drive 3 hours to meet him in the city he resides in, and give him $$$, all the time keeping my eyes closed. He has me occasionally rent a room and service him. I had an emotionally abusive marriage that I had gotten out of 6 months before I met him.

He has helped me get a better job, by making me accept more responsibility at work, and has helped me invest and move funds around my 401k to make it grow, taught me some about the stock market, and helped me be a better mother to my son.

My family has never been a good source of support for me, but I love them. He has told me not to have contact with them. I have expressed interest in seeking out counselling for myself to help me move past the previous emotional abuse, and he says no, it will make me worse. He says all I need to do is accept Jesus as God. If I do not, then I deserve the emotional sickness I am in.

It is sad that it has taken me this long to realize that he may not love me as he says, but I believe I see it now for what it is. I would just like to have confirmation from a Master here please. I know I am doing the right thing by deciding to end it.

Troll season already?

Probably the Holiday Cheer . . .

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A couple of years ago I discovered the world of kink. On collarme, I found a Dom and started talking to him.

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But he has not shared his name with me, nor any personal information in 3 years

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ORIGINAL: boomer200625
He has helped me get a better job, by making me accept more responsibility at work, and has helped me invest and move funds around my 401k to make it grow, taught me some about the stock market, and helped me be a better mother to my son.