littleladybug
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I've never really liked the holidays. Well, everything after Thanksgiving and before about January 2. I have always LOVED Thanksgiving...nothing like eating lots of decadent food and watching football...with no other expectations. After that? Honestly, I've always just hoped December would come and go as quickly as possible. For a long while, it was just the "forced revelry" thing. *This* party, and *that* get-together....freaking BS. If we're not getting together and appreciating each other throughout the year, it doesn't magically resonate with me in December... And then I had my turning point last December, when my partner passed away. That entire month, and several months that followed, were a complete blur to me. But, now, a year later, I have found myself thinking a bit differently. I am, frankly, more depressed than I've ever been in my life. But, with that being said, I'm seeing the "holidays" in a different light. My man has put up a *shitload* of lights and garland. Like over the top. But, he's done it because of *me*. I've asked him when the last time he's put up so many lights is..."oh crap, it's been years" he says, as he puts up the next piece of garland. Which has gotten me to thinking.... I still freaking hate the month of December. But, here's this guy who's celebrating what he apparently loves because I'm in his life.... In spite of what I am feeling...I see the lights, tinsel, and other holiday decorations...and HAVE to smile. In terms of gifts? I am fortunate enough to be in a position, and to be with someone in a position, where we can get what we need throughout the year. With that being said, my gifts are very well thought out. Truly...it's the thought that counts.... I won't say more, in case he's reading this.... With that said, don't even get me started on New Years....
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