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LookieNoNookie -> RE: I Hate The Holidays (12/23/2014 1:33:45 PM)
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ORIGINAL: Gauge
I hate the holidays... there, I said it.
Loved them when I was a kid, loved them when my kids were young, hate them now.
Part of my problem with them is that my late Mother made them a miserable experience for me. She was wheelchair bound for many, many years and was not the greatest housekeeper in the world, so cooking in her kitchen was difficult at best. I ended up taking her out for holiday dinners, but all she would do was bitch about it. I also have a few friends who are dirt fucking poor and have no one for the holidays, so I invited them along with me to eat and at least have some sort of holiday. They also helped me not to strangle my Mother. My Mother didn't want them to come along, but I explained to her that they were my friends and I was paying the bill anyway, so I can invite whoever I wish and I didn't ask her permission anyway.
It's been two years after her death and the holidays still suck for me. I would really rather do nothing for them and just wish they would go away. When I was a kid we had massive family gatherings, now I am lucky if my kids call me to say anything remotely like Merry Christmas or Happy New Year. My sister is trying to get me back into doing holiday things, but my heart just isn't in it... to me, it is too much fuss for one day. My girlfriend has holiday things, and she tries to understand that I don't like that sort of thing, but it is difficult for her. I don't spend money I don't have on presents, I'm not cheap, I'm poor. If I do get something, it is usually something little, but, for the most part, I put a great deal of thought into it.
Holiday time sucks.
STOP IT!!!!!!
Something's wrong here....clearly some pain.
You need to listen to your girlfriend. (She's right....chics usually are in this kind of shit).
Cheap or poor....something's wrong....hurt. Take a weekend to/by yourself....listen to your pain.
Then let go of it.
You don't have to "be there".
(Trust me on this....I've been there...it's ridiculous....really).
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