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MasterandEsclava -> RE: Please help me understand (2/27/2015 9:30:14 AM)
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Wow what a dilemma but yet an opportunity.
To be in love with someone who lived the BDSM lifestyle and states its part of their past. May not be entirely truthful with themselves and this could be due to a many different reasons.
To be a Slave or a Submissive for me is not something that I do. Is who I am, by nature itself.
I was and lived in the Vanilla life for a very long time. I also thought that I was becoming a subbie or a Slave to my Master because it was a way to be with him. But I gradually found that it was my true nature. There were always characteristics of behavior that I have.
I always had a need to be with a man who has a strong mindset, controlling and dominant. For me is not the exchange of power but the surrender of power. That does not mean "door mat" as I have a lot a fire in me which my Master loves because to him my surrender, my submission and obedience to him is the ultimate gift. Which I gladly give.
It's about trust, its about consistency, its about structure, its about guiding and teaching, it patience, its about listening and responding. Its about being true to your core. It about making Mistakes and giving corrections when needed not as just punishment but as lessons to be learned, Its about protection its about safety.
There is a definition of the "BDSM" lifestyle. but each one of us may experience it differently. It is a personal journey.
For me as Master's Slave, it is a joy and a deep love and the expression of it by giving unconditional surrender because I know and feel that as his property he will never harm me intentionally.
We are in a 24/7 BDSM lifestyle. I have been his collard slave for 5 yrs. and through the rollercoaster ride, he has strapped me in tight and just being clear sates " Handle the Ride".
and When he asks; who are you? I proudly respond, Your Property, Your Slave/Esclava your Slut, your wife.
So how do I feel? I feel FREE, I feel relaxed, purged, I feel happy and content that I gave, the ability to withstand and to endure. I feel proud of My Master. I feel safe and loved.
OH OH How Can I forget, ooooh When I sit, when I lean back I am reminded of that love, gag, whips, paddles love'em [;)]
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ESCLAVA
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