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WinsomeDefiance -> RE: The BDSM Test, where do you fall? (4/3/2015 6:09:27 AM)
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I'll try to share my response to the test, although I'm not certain I can in any coherent manner.
Most of the times, when I take these online tests I do it with a reserved but amused skepticism. Ok, every-time. I never really take them seriously. That isn't to say, the occasional test doesn't offer some insight or even the epiphany or too. I admit that when I read the description of girl/boy aspect of the test I did have something of an AHA moment.
Here is the description:
Littles (girls/boys) are submissive spirits that mix childlike innocence with naughty sexual curiosity. They long for a nurturing loving dominant who plays a guiding, almost parental role in their lives. While they require a softer approach to be dominated than most other submissives, their submission can go a lot deeper and sometimes rival those of slaves.
Girls/boys typically pair up with daddies/mommies.
For a long time, I identified solely as a submissive - because of a certain instinctual response I had to a dominant energy (for lack of a better word) when I came across one. My response is hard to explain, without sounding kinda creepy; I guess. I have never considered myself a little. Never really had the desire to slip into that role. However, my instinctual response to a dominant is that of a child in the presence of an authority figure. It is why when I am around someone I find I find myself responding too in that way - I shrink from them a bit. I feel like I don't act like myself. It makes me uncomfortable. Like a titillating experience one both craves and dislikes at the same time. Anyway. I feel kinda like an bumbling idiot around them, even though I know I'm an articulate and intelligent woman. For the love of all that is sacred, you should see me around cops. I've no idea why I've not been arrested on suspicion of everything imaginable because I'm so stupid around that particular authority figure. I've always just thought I was defective.
So, I take the test and I read the description and there it is. That AHA moment. All these years of wondering WTF was wrong with me and why was I acting so freaking ridiculous and there it was. The answer. Now, maybe I have daddy issues and maybe therapy could have helped. Or, maybe there is a child-like spirit that just adores a dominant personality and wants to find one she can trust and be herself with.
So, yeah. Tests in general are a bit silly and even lame in general but I think we can find personal truths in weird places. Even lame ones.
That's my take on the whole thing. I hope I made sense. I'm not at all sure I explained it in any way that would reveal a confusing personal truth about my recent understanding. I'm still figuring it out myself.
WinD
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