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Oneechan -> Help me with my depressive sub (11/19/2015 10:33:26 AM)
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Hi all. I have a full time, live in sub, we've known each other for a couple of months. Things did move a bit fast, but we're very well matched and lived close by, so it didn't really seem like an issue.
He's very young, age 19, and so he has the common teenager problems of angst and hormones. But on top of that, he has some mental disorders, depression at the very least, bipolar disorder too.
He's been through the whole medical process before he met me, seen tons of psychiatrists, and is on prescribed SSRIs (anti depression medicine). We're having some issues though.
Most of the time, he's a good pet. very good. He's in love with me, extremely eager to please, and will do pretty much anything i ask, he's like a dream. However sometimes, depression hits him, and his mood swings very sharply. He becomes irritable, aggressive, withdrawn, and uncommunicative. Sometimes even violent. In one particular episode last week, he practically turned into a snarling animal and we ended up physically fighting, he destroyed his collar in the struggle and stormed out of my house.
But that same night, as soon as he got home, he was on skype apologising, telling me how much he regretted it almost as soon as he walked out the door, and begging to come back. i happily accepted him with open arms. We've not had any incidents quite as bad as that since, but he's become stroppy and irritable a few times.
Today we had a long talk about it, and he says the times when he's in a good mood, are generally when he's on his meds. When he's not taking them, he lashes out. He also said a lot of things like the medicine just suppresses his real personality, and he thinks the aggressive one is who he really is.
I don't think that's true, though. He loves me, he says the only thing that makes him happy, is making me happy. And it's only when he's on the meds, that he acts like he loves me. He seems very torn, he doesn't want to take his meds, but he's a huge, self destructive mess without them. He has been a self harmer before, lots of cutting scars, and i don't want him to fall back into that.
My first thought, would be that he needs professional help. But he's already been there, done that, and says it didn't help .He also says, in his own words, that the doctors have 'given up on him' and asked him not to make any more appointments. I can't say for sure how true that is, because he's quite prone to hyperbole.
For now i've convinced him to keep taking his meds, under the logic that him being in a good mood makes me happy, and he wants that most of all. But i feel like it won't last.
About now, i'm wishing i had a degree in psychology. In lieu of that, i'm asking for advice here. How can i fix this broken kid?
Does anyone have any experience dealing with mental health issues in D/s relationships?
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