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ORIGINAL: BeautySeeking

I appreciate the support but his response makes no real impact on Me. I wrote this post so that subs could see the human side of Dommes. They don't get to see that side of us a lot of times.

Best to you.

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ORIGINAL: WickedsDesire

thrashes Alecta with a kitchen sink and hurls creature into a bucket and labels it, in finest crayon, worthless garbage. I myself are in total agreement with most contributions on here.

My replies were excellent - yours were trump like at me. I should finish you off right now if it was not for my humanity and your mad spittlings filling me with the mirth,
I did not state:
1. I was suckered by an absolute lie
2. I create/enable these monsters
3. I did it to show my humanity to someone/another who does not exist
4. waffle waffle

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ORIGINAL: BeautySeeking

I wrote this post so that subs could see the human side of Dommes. They don't get to see that side of us a lot of times.

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ORIGINAL: bondageerone
305 lbs.

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ORIGINAL: bondageerone

OMG you fat slob, at 305 lbs, he must have been really deperate to even visit you.
Terri, a lesbian bitch. xx

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ORIGINAL: BitaTruble

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ORIGINAL: BeautySeeking

HERE ARE A FEW WORDS THAT I WROTE TO A SUB THAT I MET RECENTLY ON CS. KUDOS TO HIM. HE PLAYED ME LIKE A FIDDLE AND ACTUALLY CONVINCED ME THAT ALTHOUGH HE FELT THAT HE HAD LITTLE TO OFFER IN HIS ADVANCED YEARS AND THAT ALTHOUGH HE SUFFERED FROM ED, HIS INTENTIONS WERE TRUE. HE WANTED A SINCERE D/s RELATIONSHIP. MY TEARS FLOWED AT WHAT I THOUGHT WERE SINCERE WORDS, AND I DECIDED TO RECIPROCATE. I TOLD HIM I WOULD GLADLY ACCEPT HIM AS HE WAS...AND WITHIN A DAY OF MY EXPRESSING THESE SENTIMENTS TO HIM, HE DISAPPEARED:



Sadly, there might come a day when some misfortune occurs. Should misfortune fall upon Me, I would hope that I had chosen wisely and that My dear one would be by My side...But should the misfortune fall upon My dear sweet sub, I am unmovable. Planted by his side, I will see to it that he is comfortable, that his spirits are high; that he knows that he is loved and appreciated. I will personally see to it that each of his tears are wiped away. And if the situation requires that I now serve him in this tender moment, then with My entire being I will do so. Wholeheartedly, I will care for the one who has taken such good care of Me all of these years. Perhaps his mind is aware of My presence and perhaps it is not. Regardless, I will speak life to his soul. I will sing him songs and keep him company. And regardless of whether or not his mind comprehends My love, I will love him yet still. I will stand by his side and hold his hand until his soul decides that this place is no longer his home...

This is what is in My heart for you...


And he was gone...

This post made me angry..but I am not exactly sure why. I'm mad at you. I need to go through my process.

I think it's because ...hmmm..I'm not sure..It's the words..I need coffee first.

Okay.

I'm still mad at you. Maybe I'll figure it out but I can't do it right now. I am really stupidly mad and crying about it.

You didn't even know him..I don't believe you so the words you used..they are the ones I use ...fuck.

I gotta go for a minute.

::sighs::

Don't you know what happens when you give your heart to someone and they go away? It leaves you heartless..and you are just so cavalier about..fuck..forget it. It's me..missing Michael..great big hole..that I pretend is going to be filled by someone else..but it isn't..ever.

I feel sorry for you..you are so unprepared for any reality.

Okay..I processed this and I'm not mad anymore..just sad and my gut and head are in sync with things..so..
..I just don't believe you is really the bottom line.

How do you sit there claiming to have a heart when it just got ripped out of your chest? After a day? A single day? I just don't believe you.

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ORIGINAL: OsideGirl

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ORIGINAL: BitaTruble

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ORIGINAL: BeautySeeking

HERE ARE A FEW WORDS THAT I WROTE TO A SUB THAT I MET RECENTLY ON CS. KUDOS TO HIM. HE PLAYED ME LIKE A FIDDLE AND ACTUALLY CONVINCED ME THAT ALTHOUGH HE FELT THAT HE HAD LITTLE TO OFFER IN HIS ADVANCED YEARS AND THAT ALTHOUGH HE SUFFERED FROM ED, HIS INTENTIONS WERE TRUE. HE WANTED A SINCERE D/s RELATIONSHIP. MY TEARS FLOWED AT WHAT I THOUGHT WERE SINCERE WORDS, AND I DECIDED TO RECIPROCATE. I TOLD HIM I WOULD GLADLY ACCEPT HIM AS HE WAS...AND WITHIN A DAY OF MY EXPRESSING THESE SENTIMENTS TO HIM, HE DISAPPEARED:



Sadly, there might come a day when some misfortune occurs. Should misfortune fall upon Me, I would hope that I had chosen wisely and that My dear one would be by My side...But should the misfortune fall upon My dear sweet sub, I am unmovable. Planted by his side, I will see to it that he is comfortable, that his spirits are high; that he knows that he is loved and appreciated. I will personally see to it that each of his tears are wiped away. And if the situation requires that I now serve him in this tender moment, then with My entire being I will do so. Wholeheartedly, I will care for the one who has taken such good care of Me all of these years. Perhaps his mind is aware of My presence and perhaps it is not. Regardless, I will speak life to his soul. I will sing him songs and keep him company. And regardless of whether or not his mind comprehends My love, I will love him yet still. I will stand by his side and hold his hand until his soul decides that this place is no longer his home...

This is what is in My heart for you...


And he was gone...

This post made me angry..but I am not exactly sure why. I'm mad at you. I need to go through my process.

I think it's because ...hmmm..I'm not sure..It's the words..I need coffee first.

Okay.

I'm still mad at you. Maybe I'll figure it out but I can't do it right now. I am really stupidly mad and crying about it.

You didn't even know him..I don't believe you so the words you used..they are the ones I use ...fuck.

I gotta go for a minute.

::sighs::

Don't you know what happens when you give your heart to someone and they go away? It leaves you heartless..and you are just so cavalier about..fuck..forget it. It's me..missing Michael..great big hole..that I pretend is going to be filled by someone else..but it isn't..ever.

I feel sorry for you..you are so unprepared for any reality.

Okay..I processed this and I'm not mad anymore..just sad and my gut and head are in sync with things..so..
..I just don't believe you is really the bottom line.

How do you sit there claiming to have a heart when it just got ripped out of your chest? After a day? A single day? I just don't believe you.

If you were here, I'd give you a hug. Those of us that have been here for awhile know that you grieve for Michael every day. And I totally get what you're saying. Someone is talking about the failure of an internet fantasy, the same way you feel about your loss. Comparing disappointment on the internet to living with a hole in your life.

Head up - and if you ever need anything let me know.

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ORIGINAL: BeautySeeking

I have no harsh or sarcastic words for you. Nothing that I wrote warranted such an angry response. But we each choose how we live the lives we were given. I choose the path of dignity and self-respect. Good luck to you on your path, sweetheart. With an attitude like that you'll need it.

And since you seem to have nothing of value to offer, I'll go ahead and hide your posts and block you.

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ORIGINAL: bondageerone

OMG you fat slob, at 305 lbs, he must have been really deperate to even visit you.
Terri, a lesbian bitch. xx

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ORIGINAL: bondageerone

anyone can phone me anytime xx