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ORIGINAL: littlesarbonn

I'm in the middle of preparing for a move across the country, and I was going through some old things, and I came across a box of letters, notebooks and other such stuff I hadn't seen in years. It was a box of practically the entire five year correspondence with the woman who once owned me. There were letters she wrote me during great times, horrible times, intimate times, goofy times, and all other sorts of times. There was the journal she had me write for her with every entry indicating my feelings at each moment of time that I was in her service. I was supposed to be packing, but I stopped dead in my tracks right there and spent probably half a day just reading over old stuff.

During that time, memories I had lost through time all came to light. Events I didn't even remember came to the forefront, and I remembered them almost as if for the first time. And even worse, I found myself missing her again. A lot. I had moved across the country pretty much to try to forget. After I was here, she wrote me a year or so after my move and said she wanted to send me my journals that I had written to her (not in a negative way...she was never that way). And then it all came back to me, almost like a mac truck running through my tricycle.

What do most people do when these types of moments hit them? I mean, it's been over eight or nine years, and it all came back to me like it was yesterday. Any thoughts?

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ORIGINAL: SusanofO

Well, most of the time - I lay down on my bed and close my eyes and relish the memories, until I fall asleep. I try to remember mostly the good stuff (because there is always (for me anyway) "good" stuff along with the "tough to remember"). Usually, it ends up being a 20 minute "cat nap", but sometimes I've slept for hours after doing this and it's led to some interesting dreams. 

Then I can start thinking about what "time" really might be (even if nobody knows for sure), and how it seems pretty relative, and wonder about things like how people realize they are conscious beings, and stuff like that.

I can do this for hours. But - I always end up believing I will see the person again in the future, after I have passed on to another state of consciousness after I die (I really believe this. Which might not mean it is what is going to happen, but doesn't mean it won't, either - and it makes me feel better, so I think about that).

In the case of one person, about every few months I still drive past their old house - and they've been gone for 16 years now. Doing that can really bring back some memories, and if it was agonizingy painful, I'd stop. But it's not. 

I think there is absolutely nothing wrong with re-living parts of your life in your head that were particularly great (personally, I prefer to forget a lot of the bad stuff. it can still come back and haunt me, but I will make an effort to block it after a good cry or two. I don't need to dwell on that stuff - I already take anti-depressants, he. But I can get maudlin about it, sometimes, Then I have to just stop myself.

Sometimes, I deal with it by just getting in my car and driving aimlessly around for  
hours, listening to my favorite CDs and-or the car radio. I love doing that. It is not "productive" in particular - except that it seems to be a great catharsis for me - I have no idea why, but it really is helpful for me.

- Susan

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ORIGINAL: littlesarbonn

What do most people do when these types of moments hit them? I mean, it's been over eight or nine years, and it all came back to me like it was yesterday. Any thoughts?

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ORIGINAL: littlesarbonn

What do most people do when these types of moments hit them? I mean, it's been over eight or nine years, and it all came back to me like it was yesterday. Any thoughts?