Mavis
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Joined: 2/8/2004 Status: offline
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i always choose my own punishments. hell, i'm being punished right now. i had a snit, made O/our discussion "unpleasant" and so i've lost the opportunity to converse until i can do it properly. That's a fairly obvious natural consequence. i opted that making my point was more important than anything else in my life at that moment, a pretty damn short-sighted choice, i admit. What i don't ever do is set the terms of consequences. i once asked about "how long?" and railed that it was unfair for me to not know how long.. well, that's another post entirely. lol. i just know i'll spend way too many hours here filling the void and time that is usually spent either talking to Him or tending my slave stuff. Could be several more days. <shudders> Y/you all might get sick of seeing so much of me. i do see a big difference this time though.. in the past, i've always gotten daily contact, minus all warm -n-fuzzies, just enough to know i haven't been abandoned or forgotten. But not this time! i'm all grown up now, i can see why He doesn't believe i need that anymore, and my wanting it is no more than expecting Him to jump my hoops over my misbehavior. If i said "You can only leave me without contact for 1 day at a time" i would be dictating terms, and i really didn't sign up to be dictator. (Please note, new relationships are generally NOt matured to the point of accepting even implied abandonment as a discipline, i'm not suggesting this is a common or generally acceptable way for a new couple to handle things. While i may still be as disobedient as a babe in some ways, O/our trust and security is clearly established. Y/your milage may vary.)
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