yaqeta -> RE: BDSM childhood fantasies (10/30/2006 7:13:54 PM)
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ORIGINAL: LadyJulieAnn I was fascinated with bondage and seeing people helpless from around age 7. I used to tie up my dolls and started writing stories involving kidnapping at age 10. I went a LONG time before I accepted my fantasies and incorporated them into my relationships, but life was good when I finally did. [:)] Be well, Julie I did this with my Barbie dolls. That Barbie had all the others waiting on her hand and foot, tying them up, beating them, bossing them around, it was great. I used my barbie dolls too. I used to strip them naked and tie them up,and suspend them in various positions. For me I *was* the doll, and it was some faceless stranger doing those things to me. I also had fantasies at a very early age of something like a "wooden horse", imagining I was restrained with something hard hurting my genitals and the more I struggled the greater the pain. My first fantasies were always about being forced to do things, often while bound with rope. When I was about 8 I wrote a story about being attacked and raped by a group of boys in my class - and this was long before I had any idea what sex was or how it was done. All I knew is I had this idea in my mind about people rubbing up against each other, and that it felt good. My mother found the story and was horrified - I told her it was a nightmare I'd had, and I was sure never to write any of my deviant desires on paper ever again. I was never abused that I am aware of, and have always found it comfortable to submit to and serve my partner, even in vanilla relationships before I knew I wanted to be a slave. My Master says I'm just a natural sub. [:)]
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