koimizu
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The really horrid part of this is what had previously been only a mild inclination turned into a out and out preference that i have to catch myself following. Since i was young (5+) i was drawn to either vary raced neighbors or children. Had nothing to do with home training or influence from parents or friends since mum's side of the family is as mixed as dad's. It was just an inclination. However my first husband and lover was a black man and needless to say, 10 years, some seriously heinous treatment and one pending divorce later, i find myself with an open distaste for the thought of getting involved with another one. Which i know mentally is unfair but something i have to catch myself on. Friendship, yes. Romance, not so much. Other races hold a neutral status for me. Though i know because of what i went through in my marriage, a Black Dom would find a seriously rebellious and flippant pet on His hands. A Domme, not so much and frankly, that isn't fair to anyone until i work this out in my own heart and head. ^_^;; At least i'm honest.
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