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allyC -> RE: What is 24/7 slavery like? (12/28/2006 2:39:55 AM)
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Characteristics - We live a life in which he is the orchestrator. We don't take time off, we don't have breaks, we don't turn it on and off - we just live as he wishes us to live in all ways, always. That isn't to say that I am kept chained and kneeling at every minute - but he requires my abject surrender at all times, no exceptions.
Details - That could take awhile. I am not sure what details you are interested in. There are a bazillion details in our life.
Mundaneities - My life as a slave involves lots of mundane tasks/issues. I run a business from home so that I may earn my keep but still be here 24/7 for his use. Work can be very mundane. I keep house, cook, shop, etc., like anyone else would. Boring but necessary.
Duties - My duties change from day to day, however, some of them remain constant. Those constant duties are to be pleasing, to be obedient, and to give nothing less than 100 percent honesty. As for rules/protocols there are a few constants. I do not eat in his presence until he has either a: taken a bite of his food first or b: given me permission to eat. I do not use the bathroom without permission. I do not sit beside him on the couch without permission. I do not orgasm (or pleasure myself in any way) without permission. If I bring him a meal or a drink, I am to kiss the vessel or plate before offering it. Those are a few examples.
Reponsibilities - To please, obey, and follow & respect his rules and decisions.
Rewards - My reward is a life of profound fulfillment.
Pleasures - Too many to list but at the forefront is the pleasure of knowing that he is pleased. In this, I am well cared for and *gasp* loved. :)
Pains - The ever changing struggle to reach the bar he has set for me. When I do make mistakes and do things that displease him, it hurts terribly. The ever-growing dependence on his every word while it is liberating and wonderful, it is also frightening at times. I spent my entire adult life being extremely independent - giving all of that up was (and still is at times) a struggle.
How did you set up the relationship? - He just sort of claimed me. We were engaged in communication, I was curious about my desire to submit and he had lifestyle experience and answers. Throughout our getting to know each other, he chose to make me his. It was a process of mastery and enslavement. Before I knew it, I was begging him to own me.
Was there a contract? No contract (at least not written). When I knelt at his feet and begged him to own me, he pretty much said that it was permanent, period. At one point I explained to him that if I got scared, I might retreat. I begged him to never let me do so. He promised that I wasn't going anywhere. If it gets difficult for me, he will make sure I succeed. As for contractual things like limits, safewords, etc., as long as I wish to remain in his collar, my limits are defined by him and while I am always allowed to communicate problems or issues, I am not permitted a single word that will just turn it all off.
If you are married to your master, how does it work with regard to your marriage? I was owned by him before he married me. He chose marriage for a number of reasons but I believe at the forefront of that list was that it was an effective tool in which he could better care for me as his property (insurance, etc.). I am his slave first. The marriage is secondary in every way.
Are any of these kind of like the old fashioned little housewife at home kind of things? To many people on the outside it appears that way. We live a life in which he is the man and master of his home and I am his woman.
Hope this helps :)
Well wishes,
Cav's ally
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