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LostLenore -> RE: Most unusual fetish....? (4/7/2006 2:46:41 AM)
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ORIGINAL: ShadeDiva
Sure it's easy.
Thing is the most easiest things often cost the most of your soul.
The easiest way is IMO nearly NEVER the *right* way to go.
The price of what I'd lose of my humanity, my self respect, my ideals of what a dominant should stand for, what makes a GOOD dominant, is nothing that 600 bucks could ever remotely in any way buy back for me.
My values, ideals, ethics, and morals aside ... the mere fact that by deciding to do something I flat out know is boring and I do not WANT to do means that I am NO longer in control, but that my greed is and through my greed the person FEEDING that greed is the person in control - not me. I wouldn't be dominating that person nor would I be in control, HE would be, by sole virtue that I wouldn't do it unless I was BRIBED to. Which is exactly what that amounts to me. There isn't any power in that exchange, it's a false illusion, it's empty and insubstanstial to my way of thinking, thus, as a dominant who sole interest in domination comes from the POWER in the exchange, there is no POINT for me to do that.
Plus I refuse to allow money to dominate me or decide for me who I will dominate or spend time with, life's too short for that garbage IMO. I *certainly* won't let some dude control me using money he wags in my face like a carrot before the proverbial donkey like most of those types of guys do. "Here ya go Missus Shade, I have yummy cashola, jump through the hoops, jump! Tell me I'm dirty and icky! jump! no? well how about TWO yummy carrots?" Ugh! NO thank you! LOL! Not my style.
I refuse to be *bought*. Which IMO that would be exactly what it was. I'm far too power hungry and arrogant and snooty and bitchy to allow some dude to put a price on my head, my time, or my attention when I personally find no value in it on a personal level.
I don't need the money enough to sell myself in that manner, and when I weigh in the fact that I'm aiding him in keeping him away from what he REALLY wants and needs, then there is an additional karmic evil added into the mix, IMO.
I just can't do it in the end, and I wouldn't want to.
There's no amount of cash on this earth that's worth a part of my soul or heart or to add into a karmic debt, nope, no way.
~ShadeDiva
I guess I'm more interested in sadism than sainthood because it wouldn't bother me to do negotiated insults any more than it does to give someone the kind of pain that gets their rocks off. I think the key is making sure that a sub doesn't really believe and internalize what you say any more than masochists feel bad from stimuli others would avoid. Lots of people who relish being called a "whore" or "slut" during scenes would not take kindly to it from a stranger in public.
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